Im not as PERFECT as you want me to be.

10 10 10 10 10 10 10 10

2011-02-25T15:46:00.002+08:00

YO YO YO YO!

Including today, it'll be 14 more days!
14 MORE DAYS TO GO YO~ !
See that?
Its on the 10th of March. At 8:05pm. Arrival at 6:50am.
GODDDDDDD! Why is it slow.
K. I shall slowly try to forget about the 10 of march.
Then when the day comes, I'll be like WHAT?! TODAY'S THE DAY?!
HOW COME SO FAST?! lol xD

So, does that mean I can have this view?! Aiya. Sorry bout bragging :/
I didnt mean it. Its just that im too excited for this.

When will this end?

2011-02-24T16:30:00.000+08:00

HI.

I dont know when was the last time I smiled. Sincerely, without any worries. Looking back through my old photos, I wondered when was the last time I took a photo, smiling like everyday is awesome. Like there's nothing can bring me down. But now, what i've become is a teengage girl soon to be 18 still trying to figure out how to solve problems one after another. You know, sometimes I want my old life back. Those times when I had nothing to worry about. UGH I just cant explain wtv im feeling & going through. Even if I were able to, you guys wont understand it. My life, pathetic right. Why cant I be happy like others? Why? I meant if ever someone can answer this bonus question & help me solve this issues I'll reward you with a thousand dollars. lol jk

MAMA, I LOVE YOU.

I wish im still a kid & when I say this Mama will hug me. I wish..
Mum, believe me. One way or another, I've never intend to hurt you. You kept saying that you had no one to talk to, you received no love from any of your family members, you want us to show that we love you etc.etc.etc. I know how you feels. But have you ever wondered what I feel? Or even what im going through? Or do you know everytime you cry because of me I felt like crying yet I held back. Have you ever thought about all these stuff? For once? Through out your current life? I guessed no. Both of us, are to be blame. For once in my entire life, I've never felt this way towards you. But I miss the old you. Mama yang anur kenal dahulu. Maybe you never realised this, but you've changed. I know, I've changed. I realised it. But have you? Do you know that whenever I tried to control my tears from flowing down, you accused me of being heartless. You say that I dont understand you or even love you. Its not because Im cold hearted. Its because I want you to know whether you understand your child or not. But no. If you understood me, you would have understand why I hide my tears. Every single time I hide myself inside my room or toilet & cry. You dont know that do you Mum? From the start when you say im heartless, that is where I start learning how to hide my tears. I put up a strong appearence, just to let you win. Just to let you scold me. Yet when I cry you say that the one who's supposed to cry is you & not me. Mum, what do you want me to do? Im tired of this. I expected understanding from you. Only you.

CanIDie?IAmSick&TiredOfEvrythingAroundMe.
ONE DAY, IF I WERE TO FALL, HOW MANY WOULD COME&RESCUE ME?
NON. BECAUSE I DONT MEAN A THING TO THEM.

I've never gone through this before.
Never in my life have I cried so many times. Never.
This is hard for me. I cry like 4-5 times a week.
Yet no one will ever know. All they see is the moment when I smiled.
Those are just fakes. I lied to them. Naive people.
But for once, I wish someone would see through me & know the truth.
& maybe by then half of my problems would be solved.

KBYE

2011-02-18T19:04:00.001+08:00

I'll update about my beloved MC laterrrr :)
Obviously after I've cooled down.
& Yes definitely Im freaking happy.
& As you can see, im not angry with MC anymore.

Heehee
KBYE

knn ccb

2011-02-18T18:53:00.002+08:00

EH PEREMPUAN PERANGAI KAU BETUL MINTAK KENE PENAMPAR SIAK.
KALAU TAK KENE TERAJANG DAH NASIB. MENYAKITKAN HATI ORANG SIAL.
SORRY UH AKU TAK KISAH KALAU KAU KAWAN AKU.
SORRY ONCE AGAIN, I'VE LONG HECK CARE ABOUT FRIENDSHIP.
THEY DONT REALLY MEAN A THING FOR ME NOW.

NBCB. AKU PUNYE FB AKU PUNYE SUKE UH SIA NAK LETAK APE.
NAMPAK SAH SIAK SEMUA YANG KAU POST NAK SAKITKAN HATI AKU.
SIAL UH SALAH AKU APE SIAK?!
ABEH APE? KIREKAN AKU NAK KENE LETAK QUOTES MACAM KAU PER?!
AKU TAK BOLEH NAK UPDATE PE?
ABEH APE GUNA NYER AKU ADE FB KALAU TAK BOLEH NAK LETAK APE YANG AKU NAK KAN.
PERANGAI BABI BUTO SUNDAL NYER ANAK.

SORRY AH. YOU IRRITATE ME AT THE WRONG TIME. SO DONT BLAME ME IF I WERE TO HATE YOU.
& WHEN I SAY HATE IT MEANS I HATE YOU TO THE CORE.
SAMPAI LUBANG CACING PUN AKU TAK AKAN MAAFKAN KAU.
PERANGAI KEBUDAK-BUDAKAN.

UGH FUCKING FCUK OF LA CCB.

:(

2011-02-16T14:56:00.000+08:00

HI.

You know, I kindda miss MC. Yes, im still angry about that thing but this is hard you know. I didnt go to school today. So I miss MC. Really alot. Idk what he's doing now. Lol xD K he's just my crush. Dont think too far uh.

Anyway, I dont know what happened yesterday. I just feel like telling my aunt the truth about the whole thing. About me retaking my Os. Idky but I feel like as though I've betrayed mama trust. I mean, i dont intend to. Its like I've been hiding everything. I just need to share it out to someone. I just hope, mama wont get to know about this. I dont want her to get hurt anymore.

So, i really want to quit night class. I rather sit at home & study by myself rather than go there & waste my 2 hour of having heart pain & do just 2-3 questions. Its a waste of time. I mean last year was much better. At the very least the previous teacher made full use of their 2 hours. This current teacher are all like mintak kene sepak peh muka. Kalau tak kene terajang dengan aku dah nasib. Aiyaaaa, i'll survive till march k. After that 1 week holiday i'll tell mama i cannot handle this anymore. Plus I hate that feeling. Tsk only my heart knows laaaa. By the way, everything between mama & me is over. In a good way though :D & Yes. I'll be officially gg to Australia. WTF! ME GOING TO AUSTRALIA? YES I CANT BELIEVE IT TOO. HEEE HEEE :DDD lol lucky me. & double lucky cos everything is going smoothly. After my last paper on thursday, i'll be flying off on the night itself. WEEEEEE. K I CANT WAIT! Hehe. asdfghjkl@#$%^&*(^%$#@ !

I MISS MC. ANY IDEA HOW TO GET RID OF THIS?

I WANT TO SEE MR.CUTE FACE ><
KBYE

2011-02-14T21:06:00.002+08:00

Dont ask me why. I hate MC. Ya la. You're popular what. Who am i to you right. I dont like you la. I. Am. Angry. I dont want to give in to you tomorrow. Just see, my mood depends on how im being treated.

Ps; i wont put on high hopes on that four digit.
Why must this happen when i love someone?
KBYE

Just saying.

2011-02-13T23:08:00.002+08:00

You know, im hoping that this four digit 11:11 can make my wish come true tomorrow.

MC MC MC MC MC MC MC

2011-02-13T15:49:00.006+08:00

HI.
*points down* I just want to separate this post & that post cos its a whole different topic. Now, about my WONDERFUL LIFE. Heh :)

k MC. Haiyaaaa I get all excited even before updating about MC. Just the thought of it makes me want to shout but I cant. Lets go backward to Thursday. wait . I cant update in detail like I used to. Cos I just activated my fb. & then what if MC saw this?! lol. I know MC wont know that MC is him but just for safety precautions you know :D

10.2.11
ASDFGHJKL HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO BLOG WHEN I CANT CALM MYSELF?! ugh. K
1. In ______ : 2ND TIME :D aiya ICANDIE sia. Some more beside me!
2. Timing to __ : WAHHH! At that time uh I feel like shouting. I kept looking at the clock. Counting down the time. Then I heard the sound of ____ ___. Only my heart knows how I feel at that moment & how I wish i can shout at that time. BUT RIGHT, this part doesnt mean a thing. What I want to tell is that, when I wanted to shout & all, unexpectedly I heard MC shout- somehow feeling frustrated. like:

Like thats how Im feeling at that point yet MC's the one who's doing it?! You know I over think right ?!
WAS THAT COINCIDENCE OR A SIGN?! idk
3. The _______ part & _____ : Y U SO HOT ?! NO. lol cute XD I cant resist MC ____. Tsk. I feel like when we bumped into each other there must be this - part lorr.

K. Enough about Thursday. Move on to Friday.

11.2.11
I think, as time passes i'll get used to this feeling & not get excited all the time.
1. Still in ______ : the 3rd fcuking time! But this time it didnt really happen. It's just that I wasnt at that place when MC was there. Then when I was about to reach there MC move to anthr place. AIYA HOW I WISH I DIDNT GO ANYWHERE.
2. During __ : WHY LA . Your eye makes you even cuter? lol . Why am i being sucha bitch nowadays? So what happened was, when i was standing up, turning the opposite side, I caught MC stares. Heeeeheeee XD Deep inside mine. LOLOLOLOLOL. But i know, that must be a coincidence :( I just have to keep telling myself that :/

3. Otw to __ : I kept smiling to myself XD see i feel like a flirt. Heh :) Because you want to know why? MC talked to me. Literally. I mean only certain time that i can communicate with MC. Other than that its just coincidence. PURELY. Aiyaaa. When he talk im like "KEEP CALM PLEASE" then while talking MC smile. WOAH I CAN DIE.
4. End of the day : So, around me I didnt saw MC. & i was like making a wish, please dont go back first. I want to see your face. Thennnn, FUH. I feel like jumping around like a monkey. Know why? I saw MC outside. Like again, its just coincidence that I bumped into him plus MC giving me that stare. Like you know, both of you happens to be on the other side yet somehow both of you are able to catch each other eyes. YA THAT IS WHAT HAPPENED TO ME.

K CB I CAN KILL MYSELF. FOR BEING SUCHA FLIRT A BITCH.
But, you cant blame me cos its been such a long time my heart wants to fall in love.
LOVE NOT CRUSH. You need to know me:
Once when my heart has decided on something, not even my brain can change it.

I dont want to go night class tmr. I just dont.
But I want to go to school tmr. I just want.
IMD KBYE.

SORRY

2011-02-13T12:32:00.005+08:00

Hi.
The IMD & then HI wasnt really a post you knoww. I was in a rush, so idk what happened & i just shut down the comp. Then there it is. But it looks nice though. So, this gonna be the exact one which I wanted to blog about yesterday. Its gonna be a long one. So, shall I start with my fcuk up life or my wonderful day? lol

Two days straight i cried like some mad girl. lol no. Just like there's no tomorrow. Im just letting things go since I've been shutting my world from everyone. tsk, i really feel like some emo bitch. Aiyaaaa. You dont know what i've been going through. Im trying to change. For the better, in terms of my attitude at home. I know one day I'll change. But not tomorrow. It takes time. Come on, how do you expect me to say I'll change & the next I really change & be another person whom you do know? Its hard. Its possible though but for me no. So, no one is talking to me at home. Basically only my 2 sis who every now & then annoys me. Other than that, all of them ignores me. Aiyo, I dont exist in their world whaaaat. I know ;( BUT, no matter what, no matter how often we fight or how long we didnt talk I will always love you Mum. Believe me. I might give you this fcuk attitude or even ignores you. However, at the end of the day I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER. It's just that i cant show how I love you. You know, my ego. ahhhhhh, Fcuk my ego la.

I miss the Old me. The one who is happy, laughing, smiling. Growing up sucks you know. & I thought to myself, this year i'll turn 18 yet im gg through the same old shit. Creating a mess in my life & not knowing how to solve it sucks.

P/s; Im gonna say sorry & start all over again.
KBYE

IMD

2011-02-12T18:20:00.000+08:00

HI.

2011-02-11T16:29:00.002+08:00

Hi.

I dont understand life. Well, i just broke down. I cried like there's no tomorrow. It hurts. I know i did wrong to my mum. But its not that big. I swear upon God. Its just like those typical teenagers who's rude to their parents. Typical teenagers. Not those who uses vulgar k. I dont know what happened just now. I mean, after school I was tired so I fell asleep. For God sake. I didnt even missed the Asar prayer. When i woke up its only 4pm & I still had the time to pray for Zohor. Then why the fcuk my mum is shouting. I dont understand. Is sleeping a crime? IM TIRED. FUCKING TIRED OF LIFE. THATS ALL. Apart from that, previously I did told you guys that I've accepted the so called to go to Australia permission from my mum. I swear, if I can turn back time I wont accept it. I should have listened to my first feeling.
What happened was, SHE said - I pay for your trip & is this how you repay me? Kenapa biadap sangat. Anak derhaka. Tak serik2. Tak takut nanti Allah jatuhkan balasan. Nak repeat O lagi? Kalau aku tau aku tak bayar untuk kau. Aku skrg takde duit nak beli barang. Semua harta aku dah kasi kau. Nak pergi luar negera pun takde chance.
You know what. This whole shouting series by her just broke me down. I was sleeping. Bloody hell. I didnt even shout or answered her anything. I kept quiet the whole time. I DID NOT EVEN UTTER ONE SINGLE STUPID WORD FROM MY MOUTH. Fyi, even before I accepted the request of gg there I've said to her I dont want in the future you say I need to repay you. Cos i know i cant. Not now. It freaking hurt me. Seriously. YES. I REPEATED MY O's. The only 1 person I expected to give me the fullest support is my mum. MY MUM. & NO ONE ELSE. Yet nothing. I received nothing since the day I started going to school till today. NOTHING. Everyday I have to fake myself up. Faking that everything is going smoothly for me. I dont feel like I have a family anymore. I just dont. Mum has changed. She is not what she used to be.

This is me. I mean I know, whoever is reading right now wont understand what im gg through or what im feeling. But believe me it hurts me. Im crying even as im typing this. I cant tell anyone. I trust no one. They dont give me this feeling that you-can-trust-me. They dont give me this feeling that I-can-understand-you. Im not allowed to share anything to her side. Nenek, my aunt. Anyone. Because i know if i were to tell them my problem, conflict will happen. One after another. So tell me now. Who? Me not telling anyone & just keep everything to myself is stressful enough. Maybe I am under the state of depression? Lols

I'll update about MC laterrrrr.
KBYE

2011-02-10T18:55:00.001+08:00

I just activated my fb. Tsk . Aiya i'll update later tonight. Now using phone. Bye

how

2011-02-09T21:42:00.004+08:00

HI.

HA HA HA HA HE HE HE HE HO HO HO HO ! :DDDD
I IS VERY HAPPY. VERY VERY VERY SUPER DUPER ULTRA MEGA HAPPY ! LOL. I KNOWWWWW ! YOU GUYS CONFIRM KNOW WHAT IM GONNA TELL. HE HE HE HE ! I IS VERY HAPPY. THAT I FEEL LIKE CRYING. lol MY MR CUTE XDDDD OMFG. WORDS. WORDS JUST CANT DESCRIBE HOW IM FEELING RIGHT NOW & TODAY. AHHHHH! LIFE FEELS GREAT YOU KNOW. I WISH I CAN REVEAL EVERY SINGLE DETAILS INCLUDING MC NAME IN HERE, TO YOU GUYS.
But you know, just like my previous post I dont trust anyone other than myself & ofcourse GOD. Yes God. Only Him will understand, fully knows what im feeling right now. K. I really need to cool down & calm. KEEP CALM & RELAX .
-------- k cool down ady 10:10pm -------- haha.

Basically there is like lotsa event/incidents that happen today.
1. I love it when I saw MC while gg ______ . That actually started my day.
2. When I was _____ . MC sat at the same place with me ^^,
SAM PLACE YOU KNOW ! TWICE TWICE TWICE !
3. In ____ . MC somehow tried to do some stunts
& I just cant help it but laugh.
4. MY FAVOURITE PART : In the _____ . EYE CONTACT!
UGH UGH UGH . DAMN THIS PART I REALLY CANNOT TAKE IT.
I KEPT SMILING TO MYSELF FOR IDK HOW LONG.
EYE CONTACT LEYYYY ! PLUS MC SMILED. VERY UGH ! I feel like asdfghjkl!
5. I HATE THIS. I told him smth, then all he said was I KNOW ALREADY.
WHAAAAT. That changed my mood automatically. I mean you can like ask why :(
6. When i was at _____ . I saw MC ^^ atleast he bother to go over there
eventhough he was supposed to be at othr place. < This made my day.

LOL LOL LOL . Aku cerita macam dia dah jadi matair aku gitu.tsk Padahal aku baru ade crush on dia. Macam dah kenal lame gitu. See laaa. I fall for MC again. Now you know me right. Small things can make me happy & make my stomach full of butterflies & let my heart heal & cant stop thinking about MC.

MC MC MC MC MC MC MC IF I GO ON BLOGGING ABOUT THIS
YOU CAN DIE & I CAN CRY OUT OF JOY .
UGH UGH UGH UGH I HOPE NOTHING HAPPENS TMR.
IF EVERYDAY LIKE THIS UH I'LL GET DISAPPOINTED AGAIN.
Then aku kene perah otak macam mane nak lupakan dia.
Then evrything will start all over again.
Then my heart will be broken.
AIYO. BUT FOR NOW RIGHT, I just want to enjoy this moment.
This wonderful moment of falling in love. Awww~

Same thing please. Dont ask me anything.
Cos idk how to answer & i cant tell you a single thing :/
Please. As much as i want smth to happen, i cant afford if it goes on.

KBYE
MISS MC ADY

Love.

2011-02-08T21:34:00.000+08:00

Hi.

Dont tell me that the same thing is happening all over again.
Just know that I have a crush on someone. Yes, I said that. I.
So, why should I blog about this when it is just about crush? Thats because, my brain says that its a crush while my heart says its love. wait, scratch that. Simply cos, I know myself. When I say I have a crush on someone, it'll soon change to love. Mind you, my heart can be sincere for as long as it want unless something occur in between. Haiyaaaa. I dont like this kind of situation. This feeling. Cos firstly, im bound to over think about something that is related to that person. Secondly, I know whatever that is happening now, I will be disappointed. Its kindda depressing when you dont want to give your heart away yet you cant control it.
K. I'll just force myself to accept that person as my crush. & not more than that.

Anywayyyyy, that person. Hehehe xD WE talked. Awwww~ K no. That person..K wait. I'll name that person MrCute. Short version : MC. So, MC started to talk to me. Lol. Then my reaction was just like normal. But rightttt, inside uh, my heart jumping around ardyyy. Then MC asked me to pass smth & wait at one place. So naturally, a guy would forget what he said to a girl right ? I mean most of the time. Since at that point of time it is not really that important. So, i expect MC to be at some other place BUT unfortunately, MC was at the place. UGH. Obviously, my heart somehow made its decision itself to fall a little further. THEN HOR, MC SMILE TO ME WHILE MC SAID MY NAME. Aiyooooo. I fall for it again. Thats why I say I really have no control over my heart. Everything sucks yet it feels great to have someone inside your heart.
By the way, I actually dreamt of MC. Heeeheee xD

WHY MC WHY ARE YOU SO CUTE.

So, lets see if the same thing happens again :/
& that I fall for MC further (i hope not)lol
P/s: If ever any of you read this just pretend that you didnt know.
Because... Tyvm.

KBYE.

Kill me

2011-02-07T21:26:00.003+08:00

I JUST DID SOMETHING STUPID.
KILL ME. JUST PLEASE, SMACK ME.
DO WHATEVER YOU WANT.
UGH. I DIDNT RECEIVE ANY REPLY AT ALL.
& I MEAN IT AT ALL.
This is me people.
Doing stupid things without thinking.

MY Boyfriend. Cute right. I know.
Heee :) Thats why I love him xD

I cant get my mind off it.

EGO

2011-02-07T17:30:00.003+08:00

Hi.

"Omg. You talked to me. Is this a dream?"

My ego uh VERY HUGE/BIG or whatever you wanna call it. So, recently me & mum didnt talked to each other cos Mum said i cant go Australia. With that, I decided to show my tantrum, being rude & ofcourse not talking to anyone unless its necessary. Huh, I know im not a good daughter. You dont need to remind me :/
Then just a moment ago, Mum suddenly said OK I'LL ALLOW YOU TO GO.
So, I with my bestfriend - EGO fucking said NO eventhough she asked me a couple of times. Here'ssome of the convo :

Mum: I'll pay for you. You want to go right?
Me: NO
Mum: Ingatkan nak pergi?
Me: NO TAKNAK
Mum: But inside your heart nak pergi kan?
Me: TAKNAK LA. NO NO NO
YES I ACTUALLY SAID NO EVEN WHEN SHE ASKED ME. FCUK MYSELFFFFF.
BUT, I MANAGED TO OVERCOME IT. Hhehe. Its like a good timing that i was in bathroom & i managed to say YES. Weeeeeee~ I AM GG TO AUSTRALIAAAAA.

--------------------------------------------

Another story.
I miss that guy lor. Really really miss him. But whenever i read something that got to do with him I'll go 'Aiyooo, i really should stop thinking about you.'
My heart is very fragile. It can be easily broken into pieces.

I hate Monday.
KBYE.

This is hard.

2011-02-06T14:44:00.007+08:00

Uhh, hi?

I bet no one will be reading this in the future right? Well, idc.
So, where do i start? Let's go back to the start of 2011.

January, the month that i've received my result. Its really heart-breaking to know that I didnt actually make it. Its like everything around me collapsed. It hurts alot. But I just cant seem to let go of my tears. Not even a single drop. But you know what "Silence is the loudest cry." I used to be proud of myself of being seniors-among-seniors. But now i dont. Im choosing the same route all over again. Its a tough decision. At one point i feel like giving up. Everything. But I dont wish to disappoint my mum again. & I dont wanna give a chance to those who look down on me, look down on me further. Got that? k nvm.

It is also the month that I have changed. From someone who takes everything lightly, who smiles and laugh every now & then, who talks alot(k mayb not alot uh :/), who thinks that there's still tomorrow, who thinks that everything will go smoothly in her life. I have changed. I fake smile. I forced myself to smile or laugh cos I dont like the idea of people knowing that I have problems. I speak less. & i mean it. I hide myself in my room. Always have my Ipod as my companion. Its like living in my own world. Iuthf, bnid. Figure that out. I dont trust anyone now. I used to. But this world is complicated enough. I'll never know what they are thinking.
I miss my old life. But then again without any setbacks or failure, you'll never understand the meaning of success. Now i do. Well atleast I believe in it 50%. I used to care about how people feels. Not anymore. Why should i give a damn to those who thinks about themselve & often blame others. I really dont care. Having one hater is like being famous.k idk if that makes sense. Hah. k Enough of this.

The thought of me being an 18yr old CHILD/GIRL/TEEN/LADY/WOMAN MAKES ME FEEL SO OLD.
OMGGGG. Why does the years pass by so fast.

>:[ Haha. Idk what that means.
KBYE.

Heart sinks down.

2010-11-11T23:17:00.002+08:00

The fact that i actually missed 11:11 by just one minute tells that my heart simply wants nothing to do with you anymore.
Feeling kindda awfully awful.

Pissed.

2010-11-05T01:12:00.004+08:00

Whoa. Hi peeps !

I really really need to update about something. Tsk. My life sucks. The same thing is happening all over again.
When i hate you , all the things that you do will annoy me. Tsk. Tu ah , siapa suruh kau hit my nerves. And yah. I know what will comes next. Cold shoulder. Watch how i'll show you my attitude.

Bring me to somewhere far.

back again. Mia again.

2010-10-16T01:09:00.003+08:00

Eh , hihi. My blog very dead right. Seriously, im very busy plus im very lazy. Thats th reason. Hehs. There's like so many stuffs i wanna talk. But yah , later la.

I'll be miaing till dont know when. So , wish me all the best for my coming Olevel exam. Sucks big time , i know.

Kay , byeee.

New Chapter.

2010-06-27T18:36:00.002+08:00

Hiiii :)

K great. I cant believe tomorrow school re-opens. After what seems like a month ? Can i have a day off ? Last day ? Cause i swear im not ready. I didnt even pack my bag. some of my stationary are gone. Yet i didnt bother to stock it up. Its 6.30 , and i have not ironed out my clothes ?! What fuck brain do i have. Not to mention , I HAVE NOT DONE MY HOMEWORK ! Just greaaat. Im sooooo not prepared for school tomorrow. Besides , mum going JB tomorrow. Can i follow her ?

Sigh. What to do ? Life is life. Still life must goes per normal no matter what. So , lets just say June is over. Now its July. Im left with like less than 5 months ?! Whats up with that ? The thought of it makes my stomach clenched & my heart beats faster. Really. Great. Know what ? Im gonna torture myself. Serious. Im gonna force myself to study till 9pm + breaks in between. hahahahaha ! A break is a must! Have a break , have a kit-kat. Lols. Dah mula ah nak merepek. So , yah. No tvs please. So with regards from tomorrow onwards , I will torture my ownself by forcing my fucking brains to start functioning in a crazy rate like some crazy kid. Ahhhhhhh , merepek ahhh ! Hahahahahaha . Daaaah.

Anyway, is it over ? Please say yesss :D
Cause , even if its not over i wont bother to think about it. Shiaaaaaaat.
Be it i hate my life or i love my life ,
every moments has its blessing.

I. Dont. Want. To. Fail. My. Os
Got thatttt ?
Kbyeeeeeeeeeeeee.

"Life can knock us down. But we can choose whether to get back up or not" - KarateKid.

im not dead yet pleaseee.

2010-06-20T22:42:00.007+08:00

Hi people.

Im so sick and tired of their games. Know what ? I'll just leave it to my fate. Anyway , its me life. & i rule my own life. So , one / two person wont make me go all the way down because i have more out there who will make me go all the way up. so , why be unhappy because of these type of people when we can be happy with others who really make a huge diff in our life ?
Sorry , its just another daily rambling of mine.

Ohhh !!
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL FATHER AROUND THE WORLD ! Is it today or ystdy ? Anyway, went swimming and then had dinner. & im gonna say this louddd IM GETTING DARKER EACH TIME I GO SWIMMING ! LIKE , WTF !? It hurts me to see myself in the mirror getting more brown and more darker. Hahahahaha !

18 june.

Day out with my bitches. Loads of fun. Had breakfast at Mac. And guess what , this time round Gina is th late one -.- Then went to wild wild wet :) from the 'For kids pool' to the 'Adult' ones , we tried everything. Just like one group of idiots. Hahahax !
And the day ended at Yishun Mrt.
Its tooooo long if i were to update about almost everything. Simple because , for atleast every half an hour there's sure smth that we will make a joke out of it and laugh the hell up!

Thank God school is reopening soooooon ! I miss school like hell. Anyway , i need to organize myself. School open = STUDY X3 !! Yahh, no more time to be wasted. So , im gonna enjoy this last week :D

ByeBye people.
I'll be MIA-ing till the next week :D

Im back. & I will go missing again :0

2010-06-04T21:19:00.005+08:00

Hi :D

Hows everyone of you out there doing ?
Im dying over here FYI .

Video of Nvss Speech Day's performance ;

Video's quality a bit poor =/

Am I progressing abit too slow ?

Moving on to current life.
Its been super duper ultra mega disastrous.
Very tiring indeed. But, what choice do I have ? None.
So lets suffer for a few more months.
Seriously WE need to buck up.
WE = My bitches.
Ohh , & did I mention that im starting to LOVE
SCIENCE CHEM ( practical ) & SCIENCE PHY .
and& ALLLLL thanks to the EXTRA classes in June :D

and&& Guess what ? Im starting to hate it when Ms Lit give us one
work after another when we cant even complete the first assignment.
How sucky can it be ? Well , just have to get th hang of it anyway.

Im feeeling very very tired this few days.
Prolly lack of sleeping ?
Hopefully I'll be able to regain energy .

Ohh , thats it then.
BYE X3

Progressing ?

2010-05-31T18:15:00.000+08:00

Hello :)

MYE overrrrr. ThankGod !
Improvement ?
Passed 3 subject ; Eng , Lit & Mt.
So , im trrryyyying v v hard to upgrade my other 3 subject.

And& MYE MTL is over. Kindda so-so i guess. Nd hopefully, I wont have to retake th ppr again.
Kay, while otherrs can enjoy their holiday , WE th Os student have to go to school. Totally sucks.

Oh nd did I mention this , my hair sucks. So, fuck my hair Cb.

Ahhh , nd i owe myself a full proper update :(

Ohokay then , ByeBye.

Exhausted :(

2010-05-12T13:53:00.000+08:00

Im back after my prev post which is like 2 mths ago ?

Exhausted of inserting notes in my damn brain.
MYE currently. Left with MathPaper2 nd Science.
Nd hopefully , results will improve :D

Thats it then :)

MIA.

2010-03-23T23:44:00.006+08:00

Hi =/

I know. I've been MIA-ing for toooooo long.
& I will be MIA-ing again after this post.
Too many things happened. Its too fast. Im confused. Its making me dizzy.

Yah. Im back with th most saddest, heart wrenching results.
Common test1 . HANCURRR.
I failed EVERYTHING :( except for Malay -.-
I studied. But then again , its not worth it.
I didnt put in alot of effort.
Ya , nothing to be proud of. Im sick of life.

Time running too fast. Day & Night changing too soon.
I dont get to enjoy life like how I used to be.
I know i need to catch up with th things evolving around me ,
but tell me ? How do I handle it?

Sighhh. Fine. One thing I know , IM NOT GONNA GIVE UP!
There's MYE. Bucking upp. No more lazy-ing around.
My chest/heart , idky. But its hurting me. It reaaaly is.
I dont know what feeling is this :(

Life isnt great for me anymore.
Bye :)

Does it matter ?

2010-03-03T23:53:00.003+08:00

Hi :)

Met Bazz & Fir. Tapi ni kali mendakkkkk giler :(

Does it matter ? Ini hidup aku sia. Kau siape ? Aku ade jalan hidup sendiri. & That goes to you. Kau bukan siape2 siaa nak halang aku buat ini ke buat tu. Siak uh. Kau boleh buat ape kau nak. Beh tu aku ? Nak kene hidup macam per usual pe. Pakai otak sikit ahhh. Kau umor brp ? Kau pikir kau boleh control aku per . Sial uh. Jadi matured ahh please. Kau tetap same sia. Please uhh. Jangan nak ikot style org ah. Kauuuu .. Seriously la. Aku tak boleh happy pe dgr2. Kau ajer yg boleh happy-go-lucky. Aku takde mase siak nak dgr kau kutuk2. Aku ade hal lagk important ah nak risau kan. Naseb kau baek ah, it never happens for th 2nd time. Kalau tak eh, naseb ahhh eh. CB. Mak bapak tak ajar pe dgr2. Mintak kene smack siak.

EH.
Smth happened during PE.
and&
Smth happened when im attending night class.
and&
COMMON TEST ; NEXT WEEK ;(((

Ahhhhhh ! Im enjoying life to th fullest!
F offfff others.

All over again .

2010-03-02T21:36:00.000+08:00

So. Lets cut this short.
Im ................... ! CB !
I feel like crying. But yet I dont wish to end up miserably. I feel like shouting. But yet there's no reason to why I should shout & disturb others. I feel like EVERYTHING. I need help. & Yet no one can help. & I MEAN NO ONE.

WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH THEMM ??? !
IM GONNA BE 17 . & YET THEY ARE FIGHTING !
IM NOT TH OLD KIDDO WHO JUST SIT DOWN & WATCH EVERYTHING !
THIS IS SO FUCKING FRUSTRATING !
& NOW, TELL ME. DOES BOTH MY SISTER HAVE TO GO THROUGH
TH SAME THING AS WHAT I'VE GONE THROUGH TH LAST TIME ?
FUCK ! SELFISH ADULTS !
ONE STUBBORN & TH OTHER ONE LIKE @#$%^&*
SERIOUSLY LAAAAA . KNN AH!

Whateva sucker .

2010-02-28T15:16:00.003+08:00

Muke siak kan. I know :)
Hi :)

BUSY PERIOD OVER !
YAY !
So , on Wed had Pe . This time , i DID run. But cheated halfwayyy. =D On Thurs had MalayDance. OBVIOUSLY, ENJOY-ed myself. Sadly , th songs ending soon. & So will th steps. :( . FRIDAYYY ! CROSS COUNTRY DAY ! OKAY. Have never been happy. Dontknow yy. GLADLY ! I DID RUN. & All thanks to SABRINA coz , she's th one motivating me all th wayyy to run. Initially. Both of us planned not to run. Cos of lazy-ness. But .. yeah . We did run^^ . In additional , had pms. Sucks la :( So , Sat comes & its FLAG DAYY ! I just LOVE th feeling when a person donates $$ to th tin. Like . Satisfied. Cos my hard work paid offff ! What i meant by hard work is that. MY LEGS CRAMMED TH WHOLE DAY. Basically its bcos of th after effect on Fri. Running up & down th hill made my whole leg cramp like hell. & Then as per usual. After th Flag Day had breakfast. WHICH WAS .. ahhhhhhhhh ! It feels SO GOOD when we get to seat . SO , yeah. Busy Period OVER !

Next comes th STRESS PERIOD.
Which is. COMMON TEST WEEK . So , i guess I have to start doing my rev NOW.
No more sleeping like A PIG. Cos , i've been sleeping like one th last few days. Which , of course. I ENJOYED IT ! ^^ K. Get back to my seriousness. STUDY next !

So what if i've - ? Does it even affect - ? Over there - are enjoying - with new - . So , give me th - why - cant even have new - around - ? SUCKER LA YOU. LOSER . Its 2010 ady . - are getting - each day . Each year. So. Are - still gonna be th im- kiddo like - used to be ? Forget it. I have my own life. You have yours. Bother about yours. Focus on yours. Reflect on yours before commenting on mine. Get that. Loser .

Yeah. Last thingyy.
All th Best to Bazz band . ( The Flood )
Hope that you guys proceed to th finals. ^^

AND& & & ON TH OTHER HAND. Will be getting new BAG.
& ITS IN PURPLE ! AHHH ! K. Sounds like a crazy one here ! LOLS. But yeah. Like finally ! Gonna have my fav colour bag. & Sheena & Naandhini will have th same bag as Me tooo ! Cos , th 3 of us love purple.

Bye .

LIFE ISNT AWESOME D;

2010-02-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.

HI :) Im freaking SuperFree nowwwwww.
Lets get down to th matters of everything that is happening.
AROUND MY LIFE. FEEEELSSSS -oh-so-sucky- GET IT.

LIFE IS AWESOME .
-Quoted by NAH WEI JIE DYLAN ERMIN

I TRULY DISAGREE . DISLIKE . FALSE !
Disagree laaaaaaaaa :D
LIKE I'VE GOT ALOT ALOT ALOT TO SAY ABOUT THAT QUOTE.
Simply because too many things has been happening around my life
which makes me find that LIFE ISNT AWESOME ANYMORE ! *sigh*
Kay, lets get down to EXPANDING MY THOUGHTS.

1. Its ME & th people around us that makes LIFE AWESOME.
2. LIFE IS AWESOME only when GOOD things happens.
LIFE IS AWFUL when it doesnt.
3. If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly & everyday our WHOLE LIFE WOULD BE AWESOME.
4. Even an AWESOME LIFE cannot be without a measure of darkness & the word AWESOME would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.

LIFE IS NEVER AWESOME. ITS ' WE ' THAT MAKES LIFE AWESOME AS IT IS.
Note to self ; Life Is Too Short. MAKE TH BEST OUT OF LIFE.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH ! I FEEL LIKE LAUGHING. K. Sorry. Im abit OUT OF MOOD TODAY.
Neither HAPPY nor SAD. CRAZY uhs.

I've never been so serious in Life. & At times I really, do think that I need someone to SMACK UP my Brain , Head , Face. EVERYTHING. Eh. Sec 5 adyy eh. Mintak kene smack pe. Buck up uh please. HAHAHA ! On th other hand, this thought suddenly came up. LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE SERIOUS. MOM ..... SMACK ME LA PLEASE.
My personal life. Its on th verge of breaking down adyy. School life. Seriously , dont wish to talk about it. Great . ONLY NOW I could depend on FAMILY LIFE. One word to describe , GREAT. eh wait. AWESOME. Nowwwww, thats what I can agree on.
Family LIFE IS AWESOME :D
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
*sigh* K. Get back on track. I'll try.

Will see you when I see you till I dont know when I'll be seeing you.
BYE.

If the truth was told instead of a lie,
then the pain would go away sooner
and not hurt as much.

Sweet & Pathetic Huh ?

2010-02-21T15:20:00.004+08:00

Here's a story.

Her heart.Its hurting her.No one knows it.She's such a loser to be in Love.Should have known she wasnt even prepared to be hurt again.She dont blame him.For not knowing her love for him.She blame only her for making herself falls in love again.She'll stop loving him this moment.Its hard, she knows it.But yet,she knows that she need to move on.Move on with her normal daily life.Faking that everything gonna be okay.She's trying very hard.& Only God knows how difficult for her to move on.Why cant he get it?Does he know that he's hurting her?She's been in love with him since she dont even know when.She's a moron.Such a loser.She's losing faith in Love.Her heart has shattered into pieces.Its bleeding every second.Its killing her everytime she thinks about it.She's trying to be strong.Just like she used to be.She used to love him & now she has to hate him.& All she could do is to cry silently.

GO & DIE Moron .

SPECIES , Y WONT YOU DIE ?

2010-02-20T18:07:00.002+08:00

Second post for th day.

I HATE EVERYTHING THAT'S HAPPENING AROUND ME.
I WOULD QUIT LIFE IF GIVEN A CHOICE.
I @!#$%^&*(
FUCK LA. FUCK . & I MEAN IT.SUCKER. ASSHOLE.WHY WONT THEY JUST DIE.WHY WONT THIS FUCKING SPECIES JUST DIE DOWN TH HELL.WHAT ON EARTH ARE THEY DOING ON THIS PLANET.Right.THEY MUST BE HAPPY EVERYTIME THEY DID THOSE CRIMES.SUCKERRRRRRR.GREAT.
NOTE THIS DOWN ;
I'll be faking everything. ALL OF IT.
SO, dont expect me to SHOW THAT SMILE ON MY FACE.
THAT SPECIES IS TH ONE WHO MADE ME TURN LIKED THIS.BLAME THAT SPECIES.
SMACK THAT FUCKING SPECIES TO HELL.WAY DOWN TO HELL.

Moving On.

2010-02-20T17:53:00.004+08:00

Hi :)

Deleted ystday post. Reason being , merepek. Read th post again & it feels like im talking nonsense. Like jumping from one topic to another without ending th 1st topic.
Lets start this all over AGAIN.

Rewinding .

12.02.2010
Went out for movie. FREE uh. Bcos , WE've collected enough points during Sinda classes in exchange for a FREE MOVIEE ! So, watched I HATE VALENTINE'S DAY. Damn SWEEEET. Uhm , th last part to be exact. Enjoyed that day to th MAX ! Took neoprints & bid goodbye to th Babes :)

14.02.2010
WENT OUT FOR PRATA LUNCH WITH BELOVED FAMILY !!
Yummmmmyyyy ! Been craving for prata's & prata's && prata's ! So yeah. Im happy for that moment though. Excluding th part that makes me breaking down again.

15.02.2010
GUESS WHAT ? IM SUPER LAZY THIS YEAR. Alright, lets see this. Supposedly, wanted to COMPLETE ALL OF MY HOMEWORK. -.- ! Forget it eh. Woke up. Had breakfast. Watched TV. Lock -self inside room. Fell asleep. Woke up again. Ate some snacks. Lock -self inside room AGAIN. Fell asleep AGAIN. -.- -.- !! Woke up around 6+ . Had a bath.
And& that was how i spent my WHOLE DAY DOINGNOTHING. Non-At-All. Mintak kene smack siaa.

Skipping.

Thursday. Alright. Listen hereee. I LOVE THURSDAY. Bcos I LOVE MALAY DANCE.
One week not having malay dance feels like something is missing in me. Zzzz , then how about after Speech Day ? -.= Have to prepare myself fm now. :(

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

So, after what had happened. Decided on ONE MAJOR THING. And& that is to FORGET EVERYTHING that had happened. Ok. I wont elaborate anything. Pisses me offfffffff. AGAIN. Idk. HATE HATE HATE HATE. I JUST HATE THIS !
Im gonna move on like nothing happened. Im gonna be th girl who fakingly says she's happy. Im gonna be th one who dont care about anything. YAY !
I HATEEEEE YOUUUUUUUUUUUU !
Dont bother asking me. Dont bother. Ever. Cos I'll not even bother answering you.

Woah. Kecoh sia korang. Like got no life like that. Desperate sangat ke pe .

So , lets end this here.
See you when I see you till I dont know when I'll get to see You.
Nak kene smack ke pe. Panjang sangat sia.
BYE uh BYE !

Over th MOON !

2010-02-09T23:09:00.001+08:00

Eh. Hi :) Im back. Again :)

Coz .... Guess what. Tomorrow is a BRAND NEW start for me !
First of all , before you guys read.
I admit, I AM EVIL. Uh , i just realise it this yr lar. Dont blame me :(
Okay , here it goes.
FORTUNATELY , I'll be able to change SEATS ! Like , FINALLY ! K , on th surface its a no-big-deal thingy. But for me, it is! Im soooooooo bad. Fact is that , fm th start of th year till TODAY , im seated with Pri__a (girl , fm 4a3 ) Figure it out. One thing i cant stand her is that , I know she's trying to copy my work. Like , okayyy .Im not saying that my work is always up to standard. But ONE thing that i totally pissed me off is that , SHE CAN VERY WELL ASKFOR HELP. Seriously. Mintak kene smack sia tu anak. Not only that though. She tell jokes ( which aint funny. AT ALL. ) Then she laugh by herself. Hello ~ Otak senget eh ? GOSH ! Like seriously , theres ALOT ALOT ALOT MORE to add on about herrrrr. But , dang. It'll just pisses me offfffff all th wayyyyy.

Gladly , like what i saidearlier on. CHANGEd OF SEATS fm tmr onwards ! Shouuttttttt YAY FOR ME ! Lols ! So what I did today in class wassssss , walked over to th Babes table. Called Mrs Ho. Said to her , 'Tcher, when are we gonna change seat ? '
Her : Why ? You dont like seating there ah ?
Me : Ya la Tcher. Cos of .... *points at her* Not used la tcher.
Her : Aiyo , dont be bad la. *smiles*
Me : *laughs* So tcher ? Can change ?
Her : Oklah. *smiles* You seat here.

..............................................................

YAYness for ME ! Tomorrow onwards ....... Im seating farrrrr awayyyyy from herrrrr !
Jeesh. K. I know you guys been holding up to say. ' I am oh-so-evil. ' SAY IT NOW.
I admit i am. :)

Urghh ! Another thing.
JIHAN sucks. Remember ? That show, last time i used to talked about ? Previously , th show was like making me OMG ! OMG ! Now its making me -.- -.- ! ! Director really like @#$%^ Th show very heartpainnnnnn siaaa. Blood is boiling already ! Dont watch ah Dont watch ah. Menyakitkan hati aje. Mintak kena smack sia that director ! Whatever laa.

There's this Cute Guy. There's that Cute Guy. & That Cute Guy. & This Cute Guy. So howw ? ^_^
Was what i updated on my Fb status. Then I changed it to ,
Jeesh. I know Im sucks. Just ignore everything.
Ask me y. & I'll sayy , MYOB. Suddenly feeling very sucks la dey. RANDOM.
Cb laaaaaaaaa. I wan quit LIFE.

Dannng. Guess what im switching mood now.
CAN I SHOUT ? HUH ? HUH ? I WANNA SHOUT OUT LOUD !
Basically , IM OVER TH MOON lo.

Kay END HERE end here.

-____-*

2010-02-06T22:01:00.000+08:00

]

Hi :)
Dang! Im hating life right now.
EVERYTHING. & Idky. SERIOUS shit.
& Almost evryday , I'll just be RANDOM.
I mean it. I'll either be...
Happy. Sad. Moody. Crazy.
Quiet. Irritated.
& I wont be able to predict anything.
If I can quit life like how I play games,
I'll do it sraight awayyy.
School macam Sucker. Home lagi Speechless.
Teacher macam Siak. Homework boleh Die laaa!
Classmates macam Asshole.
Conclusion , LIFE S.U.C.Ks. get it.
Im on th verge of breaking down.
Oh Shit! Hang on there.
Just a little more. Im sure you can do it.
Jeesh. A fact that I know life isnt that Sucky.
Its th way I made my way through th Sucky Life of mine.
Cb. Seriously laaaa , I need to get my brain fixed up SOON.
Few more weeks to Common Test 1 & Then its gonna be MYE.

K. Thought that there's gonna be 3 PRELIMS.
But then NO. There'll be ,
Common Test 1
Mid-Year-Exam
Common Test 2
Prelim
and& OLevel Exam.
Seeeeeee , thats y i told ya. Life gonna be sucks all th way this yr.

Okay. I kindda need to FOCUS more. & I mean fcuking FOCUS.
Simply because, EVERYDAY ....
School ends. Back home. Settle homework.
Sat & Sun. I barely touch my Books.
Unless , if there's Hw needed to be done.
O.M.G.
& Here's a little secret.
In class, ESP MATHS. I didnt EVEN concentrate.
NONE at all. & IF i have to , I'll just be referring to txbks.
Cb. I feel like complaining to change OUR maths teacher.
He's making Me & ALL OF US ( mostly fm 4A3 ) failing our grade.
& I swear , there wont be ANY improvement. AT ALL.
Thats it all. Talking about that Mr C. It just pisses me offfffff.

So, on th other hand. Th ONLY , ONE & ONLY that make me feel like ...
Wahhhh! " School life is SO FUN " is MALAY DANCE & LITERATURE (PrivateLesson)
Combine lesson arent that GREAT. Non-at-all. Pathetic.
MalayDance. Like OMG ! I am SO SO SO excited when its evry Thursday.
Our instructor not that strict. Maybe not for now.
But ... Th Dance step is like WOAH. High Standard sia.
Really LOVE th dance step. :))

Another secret here I would like to confess. Again.
Im having a CRUSH on 3 Guys.
2 of them. Younger than ME.
& 1 of them. Older.
Hehs. H & S .
and& OBVIOUSLY, th other one is
Justin Liangggg ! Hehes.
Th current teacher that im EYE-ing.

See you when Im SUPER Freaking NON-BUSY.
BYE.

& after what happened
it breaks th heart
that was always
beating every other day.
A fact that th soul know,
everything seems to be crushing down.
Th mind says
just hang on there
& hopefully , one day
everything will be fine.
There it goes again ,
Th heart seems to be
beating all over again.

Sometimes the greatest journey
is the distance between TWO people.

Blow away those wish.

2010-01-31T21:11:00.001+08:00

Send my wishes to these people that I MISS.

4A3s. United since 2008.
We DO fights among ourselve. But yet, we are back again as ONE COMPLETE FAMILY. We arent racist. WE DONT insult one another just because one is stupid. We help one another. We dont have cliques here & there. We share every jokes that we made to each other. We motivate one another. and& Most of all, WE LOVE ONE ANOTHER. & Thats what I LOVE IN 4A3s SPIRIT. C.R.U.S.H. forever. I miss them so much. Their laughter. Their voice. Their fights. EVERYTHING.

& I miss this cliques. Enemies during Sec1. Back in Sec2 again. Conflicts again in Sec3 & WE ARE FRIENDS ALL OVER AGAIN in Sec4 till now. Thats friendship. No matter what happens , all of us will still be friends.

Hi :)
Im back not knowing what to update in my post.
& I've changed my Skin.
& There's pink on it. Just th same as previous skin.
Hmmmmmm , Kay i dont really mind. Hahahs.

Literature hw done ! Malay hw done !
Said this to Gina :
I am PROUD of myself. I am hardworking & I am good in doing poem ( prev prev post ).
You should be PROUD of me for being my friend.
I guess that must have irritate herrrrr. Hahahas !& Now im thinking on whether should i do my revision orr
start doing it next week ? Whatever.
& SERIOUSLY la eh, I NEED SINDA to start ASAP. & I mean ASAP !
MR C. teaching us MATHS. Almost th basic thing. & I seriously dont get whatever he means. He dont even know how to answer our ques. -.-*
& Now th only thing i could depend on is to ask MRS A. She's MUCH MUCH MORE BETTER .
MS K. She's seriously bias. More into towards th clever or I can say , GENIUS kiddos in Maths class.
Goshhhhhh . I.Need.Classes.To.Start.Sooooonnn.

Why eh Why eh Why eh ? I just dont get it.
I need th ...............

Awwwhs.

2010-01-30T00:13:00.000+08:00

Hi :)

Life, not much of a different.
Tomorrow Saturday :( Okayy.
Saturday && Sunday are meant for me to relaxxxx.
Sadly, not anymore. Homeworks piling up.
Esp LIT :) Guess what ,
WE (th EX 4a3 has to do th same thing all over again like last yr )
Remember ? Th 8 songs we had to during June Hols ?
Thats it. We. Have. To. Do. It. All. Over. Again.
& Its just because we are COMBINING classes with th EXP kiddos.
Jeesh! Life in school is not like 2008 & 2009 .
& In fact im missing th 4A3s surrounding.

Kso. Singing session in school on Fri is getting more exciting.
As in th song la. NEW SONG. & not like th OLD-TRADITIONAL SONG -.-
I've copy-paste th lyrics. But then didnt manage to add th song & video.
Cos .... I've no idea downloading th video fm YT & adding it here.
HAHAHAHS. Kay laugh cos im an IDIOT at doing this stuff :)

and&& In additional , I've bought th next TWO series of HON.
Book 5 & 6 ; HUNTED & TEMPTED.
& im hoping that there'll be NEW BOOK/SERIES fm HON COMING OUT.
IM getting addicted to those books :))

HEAL THE WORLD - M.J
There's A Place In Your Heart
And I Know That It Is Love
And This Place Could Be Much
Brighter Than Tomorrow
And If You Really Try
You'll Find There's No Need
To Cry
In This Place You'll Feel
There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways To Get There
If You Care Enough For The Living
Make A Little Space
Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why
There's A Love That
Cannot Lie Love Is Strong
It Only Cares For Joyful Giving
If We Try We Shall See
In This Bliss
We Cannot Feel Fear Or Dread
We Stop Existing And Start Living

Then It Feels That Always
Love's Enough For Us Growing
So Make A Better World
Make A Better World...

We Could Really Get There
If You Cared Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
To Make A Better Place...

Those dreams ...
How about in reality ?

One day, I have to.

2010-01-26T21:49:00.001+08:00

When stars fall from the sky
When the sun no longer sets
When the moon no longer shines
When rain refuses to fall
When flowers refuse to bloom
When birds no longer sing
When the seasons no longer change
When stories can no longer be read
When words no longer mean a thing
When miracles have lost their wonder
When hope seems so distant
When happiness fades into the backround
When life is meaningless
When laughs seem useless
When voices can no longer speak
When songs can no longer be sung
When the only sound that exists is silence
When hearts no longer love
When smiles are only memories
When holding hands is forbidden
When eyes can no longer cry tears
When wounds can no longer be healed
When death is not met with loss
When even after death my heart keeps beating
When love steals my life and I die
When eternity finally ends..

When all of these things happen ,
That will be the day I will stop loving you.

Rewinnnddd

2010-01-25T18:40:00.004+08:00

Anyone wants DONUT ? :)

Hi :) I've been dead for too long.
Anyway , been SUPER SUPER busy.
24 HOURS A DAY IS NOT ENOUGH FOR ME!
SERIOUSLY! 6-7 HOURS FOR SLEEPING. &
TH rest ? Mostly at school. WTH?!
I. NEED. MORE. THAN. 24. HOURS. .........
Okay. Im being SUPER irritating here!

Hehehs ~ Kayyy , lets REWIND.

Firstly , Malay Dance.
First practice - SUPER DUPER MAJOR TIRING. Serious speaking. Compared to our previous practice , this one is th most TIRING. Really. & For th first time in our Malay Dance prac we perspire like H.E.L.L ! Just imagine it ! I thought out instrc set th temp higher but then , was wrong. And after th prac mostly our legs were like mcm jelly gituu. Hehs :) TAPI SAKIT SIAA . Suffering sia :( Oh & th instrc ... um not as strict as WE thought. He's kindda okaay . Andfor our warm-up thinggy - running of 5-6 rounds. Hehehs. K , maybe me & Aziah will be able to escape it since we'll be attending th prac only after our classes end. YAY ! Hehs. And& THURSDAY FM MORNING TILL EVENING DAYYY. sucks la. sucks.

Secondly , To Yanne asking bout MCS.
Hahs~ Actually , its nothing uh. But , during our Cca Open hse they dance Kude Kepang. So we was kindda shocked. & Lagikpon dorang joget tak serious. But now should be dah okay uh cos ade cikgu baru.

Thirdly, Justin Liang.
Ahahahas! Okayyy! I must be crazy to put his name herreee ! LOLS! New teacher ah. O.M.G ! He's SUPER FREAKING CUTE ! Okay , maybe not for GINA. Ahahas. Cos THEY prefer MR CHEW (old) than MR JUSTIN LIANG (cute) Hehehehs.

Bye ! :)

MCS PRAC DURING CCA OPEN HOUSE.

Heart pain siaaaaa.

2010-01-20T18:50:00.005+08:00

Lets start with smth wonderful first.

First of all ,
HAPPY 39TH BIRTTHDAY TO ZARINAH BTE AHMAD.
hehs =) My ONE & ONLY Mother ,Sister && Friend (when i need her th most)
To be exact , her birthday falls on 19 Jan. Which is ystdy , & im too busy & tired to update my blog. Hehs :)
So, yeah. Wont update any longer. I'v WISHED her ystd EVERYTHING thats in my heart.
& I LOVE HER SO MUCH excluding HER NAGGINGS. Lols!

Kay next. MY HEART VERY VERY VERY VERY PAIN! Mcm CB!
Kay la, its not like as if im very RUDE or what. Story telling starts ...
Supposedly, today WHOLE FAMILY from MOM side will be coming to my house for gathering , celebrating my Mom bday. Order th food. EVRERYTHING PLAN mcm nak mampos lepas tu ade cakap dorang tak jadi datang. Ade hal. ??!!

1st aunt say to my nenek : Lagikpon ini anur(me) yg ajak. Bukan mak de yg buat. Jadi tak yah dtg lah. Lagkpon anak2 along semua tidor siang pukul 8 .

3rd aunt no problem la. When i called her & told her bout this situation. I cant help but cry on th spot. Its really frustrating leh. Damn pissed offf !!
Th only aunt that understand me.

4th aunt text me at school. "Nenek sakit tau. Anur tak tau ke?" So what does this shows ? They most prolly wont come right ? Fine! Greatt. ..... Then after text her everything 'asking for confirmation about th celebration ' She text me say ' nenek ckp nenek dtg. ... Nenek sakit pon nenek nak dtg sbb anur. '
Seriously , if any KIND GRANDDAUGHTER WOULD HAVE BEEN feeling veryyyyy awkward rightt ? But no. First thing that comes out from my mouth 'GREAT! Salah aku lagk ?'
Go figure it out why i said that.

This is WHY i always say . When it comes to us , there'll be TONS of EXCUSES.
Awwwwrrgghh! SERIOUSLY , MY HEART's IN PAIN RIGHT NOW! I know im kindda rude. But i've been holding this feeling for a very LONG TIME!

Bye =/

CCA Open house ; Scholarship.

2010-01-16T21:31:00.001+08:00

Hi humans on EARTH !
Ehehe . Im back ! Like yesterday slept around 1 ++ & woke up ard 6.30AM.
Cos attending CCA open house. As in helping them out. Ahahas. But sadly didnt get th chance to dance. On th other hand, its still a good point. Cos ..... K let me explain.

MALAY CULTURAL SOCIETY WAS SUPPOSED TO BE HAVING :
MALAY DANCE DIKIR BARAT KOMPANG & OTHER STUFFS.

But now , wherrree on earth did th KUDA KEPANG comes about ?
Its like very weird ! Its very saddening. Our MCS used to be having HUGE group. & now left a few. & Lagik pulak dorang joget Kuda kepang. Seriously , when I saw how they dance like 50/50 , Im like so ........... ah so ... indescribable. I feel like crying when I saw how they dance & how unstrict they are. Look. We've just got OUR FIRST MLY DANCE SILVER AWARD last year. & If this goes on , tell me now. MCS gonna gone sey.
So that was before th performance. But after I talked to them about few stuffs. Okay. It was much better. Atleast they have some confidence in them while they're dancing. & Initially, me & Aziah like 100% guarantee few people will be joing this MCS group. But ... GREAT! We managed to grab almost 17 Sec1 peeps. Seriously , this year Sec 1 punye budak melayu very limited sia. Kene tarik ramai ramai. & Next, heard fm Fizah OUR next instructor will be th Teacher fm NSS . Shucks! He's bloody damn strict. SUPER MAJOR STRICT THAN OUR PREVIOUS INST. But oh well , April th last time we'll be enjoying th life in MCS. & OH one more thing. How unlucky can we be ? Cikgu Yazid ehhh .... lepas kiteorang dah nak last year semua buat activity yang best2. This year gonna have trip to Sarawak. So ? Just wait & see .

Just now went YCC with Sheena collect Scholarship thingy. 374 . My queue no. Fm 001-374 . Imagine it. My butt hurts alot. My head very stiff sia. AND& Oh , saw my OLD BFF. Like seriously, was shocked to see her. Actually , I kindda expect that she confirm gonna get it. But its just that i cant find her. So before gg up th stage , she tap my shoulder and& i was like O-M-G ! Miss her damn lots. :)

Oowwww !!! WHAT TH FCUK IS WRONG WITH MY THROAT ??!
Nak cakap ULCER ? bukan. Sore throat ? Jauh skalik ... Then ?
Macam ade PIN & ITS REALLY DAMN PAINFUL WHEN IM SWALLOWING ANYTHING.
Owwwwww ! I feel like cutting up my neck right now. Cb la.
Homeworks WILL START TO PILE UP next week onwards.
Full SWING next week! REVISION next week!
Ok. 100 % CONCENTRATION PLEASE NUR'AFIFAH BTE MOHD ANWAR.
SUFFER NOW RATHER THAN LATER .

Thinking twice . Move on or stay ?
Why it happened ?
Why not when - having doubts about th whole thing ?

Dengarkan aku Kumerindukanmu ...

Happpppppyy life ?

2010-01-15T23:11:00.003+08:00

Raudah cakap blog aku banyak EMOOOO story.
Hhahas. Kay i'll be HAPPY ! & I MEAN IT.
Actually, on second thought.
I know very well im not gonna survive being Happy .
Somehow or somewhat i'll still end up th same way i used to be.
OkayK. I'll make this post longger with pics.

Its a fact.
Im feeling much better after th conversation.
Atleast i dont have too many burdens on me currently.
& Thanks .

Fcker. Atleast have some sense of originality.
Wad-the-ever -.-*

Those words seems to be stuck in my throats .....Goodnight ! Tc !

Killer SHOCKed.

2010-01-13T18:19:00.003+08:00

I AM SO SHOCKed. Okay no explanation needed. I'll just update about this stuff somewhere else.
Shush. Its like haunting me day & night.
Helpless. Th best way to describe everything thats happening currently.

Oh HI :)
Er , PE today ? And& its at 3.00 PM . THREE O'CLOCK IN TH NOON OKAAAAY ! Like wth ?

I miss that Kid down here. Umh , i forgot his name.

Again FRANCE. Anyone wants to bring me here ?
This place is like damn awesome. Maybe not , but still I wanna go.
Maybe honeymoon ? LOLs.
Kauuu , zaman sekolah belum tamat dah nak pergi jauh.
Mimpi ajer lah .

Latest news , Both sisters :
NUR QASRINA BTE AMIR & NUR NILAM SARI BTE AMIR

YES ! They've started school already. OMG . Its like so damn fast.
When they're not at home , I'll be MISSING THEM SOO MUCH.
But , when THEY ARE at home, 'Adoii . Korang ni memekak ah. Tau suruh gy skolah tadi ' I AM SO EVIL. Teehees ~

Okay so lastyly, one joke i made.

NOT HOT ? YOUR
NEXT PIZZA'S FREE .

So that is what written on th PIZZA BOX.
But what I read was :

HOT. HOT ? YOUR.NEXT.PIZZA'S.FREE .
and& I was like ? Ape kebenda siaa ni kotak merepek.
So, i went closer to th box to have a CLOSE UP VIEW & I started laughing.
LOLS. Kay not funny ? Takyah ketawa uh .

Err ...... jeesh. Whatever lah.
Follow th flow.
Okay .
BYE! & SAYANG SEMUA .

Will it hurt telling th truth ?

HouseOfNight! BoysLikeGirls!

2010-01-09T23:44:00.013+08:00

Warning : Longer post than previous . Skip it kays !

Hiii :))
Im back again in da house ! Gee ~ Lols.
I AM TRYING TO LOVE MY LIFE BY MAKING MYSELF HAPPYYY ! =/
Ehehes. So, Currently addicted to :
Boys Like Girls Band. They ROCKs my LIFE ! Like SERIOUSLYY !
and& not forgetting ,
HouseOfNight Novel . LATEST HOT STUFF FOR MEEEEE !
Hehehes . I STRONGLY recommend you guys to
LISTEN TO BLG & READ HON novel !
K , HON novel has got something to do with
VAMPYRES. and& Romance too . =DD
AND AND AND , BOYS LIKE GIRLS IS COMING ON TOUR THIS YEAR !!!
28 JANUARY . if im not wrong.
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG ! HELL YEAH .
HOW I WISHED I CAN GO FOR IT . Sedih ahhhh ..
& & ALSO , CURRENTLY ON REPEAT MODE : LOVE DRUNK & THE GREAT ESCAPE !
*starts to sing* ehehes ~

THEY ARE LIKE SO SUPER DUPER ULTRA-MEGA MAJOR COOL !

I've got this . BOOK 1

&this. BOOK 2

this too. BOOK 3

& this was bought by my MOM as a gift. BOOK 4

SO NEXT , saving up money to be this series , BOOK 5

& this series . BOOK 6

HUNTED & TEMPTED series.
THEY ARE LIKE SO TEMPTING . hehes~
LOOK at th COVERPAGE . Its so tempting that I actually wanted to jump over to this two series & just read them. But hell no ! I dont wanna miss th FUN part in th first few series. Ehehehes . So be patience k . :)

O.o & I found this @ idkwhere.com about HUMANS dreaming being angry @ someone or something. and& It sort of happened to me as in me being angry about something. and& THIS ALSO has got something to do with life & its quite TRUE . So read it.

Who are you angry at? Why are you angry? Being angry in a dream often represents an emotion we want to have in waking and will not allow ourselves to experience. P
People who dream of being angry often have difficulty expressing the emotion constructively in waking life. As such, anger reflects our feeling that we are being denied what is ours by necessity or by right. Sometimes, you may find yourself dreaming of being angry at someone who never angers you in waking life.

K. Sunday is TOMORROW . So ?
Im not done with my LIT hw . ahhhh fuck. But , at th same time I wanna read th HON books too ! So ? Best solution is to finish up my hw & spend th rest of th day reading th books PEACE-fully ! Ehehes. Im so good nowadays -.-*
Whatever k. Just wait & see next week onwards. Will this new-good-girl last long ? Kkkkk, lols ? Im being so banyak cakap nowadays.

DATECHECK : 090110
COUNTDOWN : 10 more DAYSSS TO MOM'S BIRTHDAY !
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG ! HOWWWW ? Ehehes .
Planned already . She dont wanna celebrate outside as in have dinner . Cos she's been having TOO MANY DINNER WITH EVERYONE AROUND HER lately.
She dont want HANDBAGS cos she bought some at KL.
& Just now went CausewayPt , went into this watch shop. She macam nak kasi clue gitu. ahahas ~! Thought of buying her that gift which cost $230 - estimated . But , currently i have around 300 but im thinking of asking my dad to share th cost with me. I'll pay for 100bucks & 130bucks he's forking out. COOL huh ? & for my bro ?? ehehes . He's broke. Pathetic . Nah~ Hhahas.
K. But,I still wanna have dinner outside. Its like not fun celebrating birthdays without dinnerrr .
and& th place ? Belum think ahh . Takde idea.

How do I do this ? My heart's beating .. it's just so unpredictable. One moment it slows down & th next moment it starts to speed up.
Idk what im thinking about either.
The more you find to love, the more love is able to find you.

Bye & TC Sweethearts .
That timecheck somehow means to me :D
*Yawns & Stretch*
Have a good day Humans on Earth !

Sucker im being Random K.

2010-01-08T18:35:00.002+08:00

Hiii :)
Hows life everyone ? Its raaaaaining. Urggh.
Kay, yesterday I officially gave myself a new nick name WEIRD.
& I AM WEIRD as in CONFUSED . Got that ? K nevermind.
Ik you guys dont get it anyway. Its so uncomfortable.
Oh & yah , went to NgeeAnnPoly OpenHse. Like okaaay , I wanna go Poly but out of so many courses im sort of interested in Childhood Edu. Which is from my Mum opinions its not a good course becaaaause, even with my O cert I can still get it. So yeah , sighs. And& majority of my fav course, its in NAFA . Kay . So what ? K, im just like preparing what course im gonna take , check out te COP & te criteria cos atleast I know on which subject I need to focus more. Its like im just having te main idea of te whole Olevel journey thingyy. Knvrmind. We'll see somewhere around August or September about th choosing course thingy. I've been EYE-ING NAFA SINCE LAST YEAR. & I hope nothing can destroy my dream into gg NAFA. And& currently, im definitely choosing NAFA as my NextDestination. fullstop

OmgOmgOmgOmg . Im gonna kill myself. I cannot handle this sia. Cb la.
K ehehes. Interruption ah. SUCKER. Waahh , really. Agree with my Ft. Th more we keep th problems to ourselves, th more stress we can be. Waaaaaaaahhh ! Tak boleh tahan oii.

K back on track baby. Say what , this week been sleeping alot. & I mean really. But yet , im still like bloody fucking sleepy at school. And& im like dozing off every now & then. Next week Day6 . & th best part is theres like more than 4 blocks as in period if im not wrong of LIT next week. & th not-so-best-part is, we'll b joining classes with te express peeps. How's that ? This yr most of th subject will be combining class. Wtf wth ?! K nevermind. Like what i've said just go with th floww baby. I cant complain , neither can I grumble cos Os time already k. Umm & yeah , next week onwards my eyebags gonna grow. Lols ? K . Sinda ? When are they gonna start ? Im so dead bored at home.

and& not forgetting to th '09 batch taking their OLevel result this coming Monday , just wanna
WISH THEM SUPER GOODLUCK FOR THEIR RESULT
& KEEP MOVING ON NO MATTER WHAT.

Set achievable goals. Then break them into baby steps,
and tackle them one by one.

WAITING FOR MIRACLES TO HAPPEN IS LIKE
WAITING FOR SNOW SEASON IN SG.
FUCK UP . STUCK UP . SUCK UP .

& if I would find another person,
that person will be just like you.
Bye & Tc
Sweeeeetheaarts :)

KL ; NewYear ; Schools ; Friends.

2010-01-06T23:32:00.004+08:00

Tadaa ! Im back.
Okay. I'll get straight to my main point cos im pretty sleepy right now.

First thing first, lets Re-cap during my trip to KL last year 2009. As i've said earlier on i'll be celebrating my NewYear at KL. and& that is te most pathetic thing. Seriously. Okay like i enjoyed shopping there. My view in te hotel was te TWINTOWER. Okaaay , that is somehow cool. But on te 1stJan of 2010 which is in te middle of te night. I was expecting to see those beautiful fireworks. But sadly i didnt. Those fireworks were blocked by some stupid buildings. PATHETIC X3 !
Okaay, enough about it. Basically we went there because of my dad side relatives wedding. So, went two days earlier & went shopping there. & seriously my first impression of te LRT was like , okaay that is like so COOL. But seriously, it didnt last for long. Not even 10 minutes. The moment we stepped into te LRT , its like so bloody packed in there. & everyone tries to squeeze in no matter what. Like wth sey. & somemore they can push people. Seriously no patience at all. & one of them even say "excuse me! excuse me !" Like ....... Hello ~ Your LRT cannot be compared to OUR MRT -.-* Our MRT , no matter how many times we say "excuse me !" we still have spaces to move in. Whatever =.-*
Next thing , went shopping. Like serious , there's too many stuff for me to choose. Too many for me to buy. Cos te shopping center is like 5-7 stories from one END to another END. Its HUGE k. Sadly, didnt manage to buy lotsa stuff. Nevermind. I'l b gg to KL again during te SINGAPORE NATIONAL DAY. Kkkkk , wassup with me ? This yr im not celebrating New Year in SG & even NationalDay ! Sucker. K , nevermind.

and& te most saddest thing is that , I cant wish my darlings HAPPY NEW YEAR ! :'(
So, i've already wish HappyNewYear in advance & i want to wish HappyNewYear again ! HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 GUYS! Ehehes ~

So next, SCHOOL life. Seriously, i just have to go with te floww.
New timetable . New surrounding. New teacher . I cant complain much, do I ? and& hopefully by te end of these month , i'll be able to handle everything. School seriously changed alot. ALOT OK.
Timetable - DAY 1 TO DAY 10 . wth ?
PE in te afternoon ? I hate this te most ! HOT SUN OK.
Will b gg back late starting fm next week . sigh.
So this week , school end. Fetch sister & sleep. Cos next week onwards i wont get to sleep like this week. :(
Timing for Recess been change. 45 minutes of recess time after our several suggestion for like 3 years ? & now they're changing. GREAT. and& now , 45 mins is kindda long. Unless if there's my BFF :( Atleast , te most with them around, me & Aziah can do lotsa stuff. And& Raudah , Myy , Yanne & who else ? They'll b visiting me or to be exact NVSS . Teehees ~ Come quick guys ! Miss all of already !I mean, missing te times we had together during school , recess time & after school. :(

Okaay, is this long enough ? Nope. I cant think of anything much. Look, im already being forgetful right now. and& one of my NewYear resolutions is NOT TO BE A FORGETFUL PERSON. Someone remind me please. Tomorrow or to b exact later will b gg to Ngee Ann Poly which i sort of not interested. K nevermind,i;ll just check outt te course available there. and& Today i slept again. Wahhh shiok man ! & todays dream was te BESTEST DREAM OF ALL DREAM I HAD BEFORE THIS ! I want that dream again tonight. Pretty please ?

Kso , before I end.
One conversation .

Me : Im sort of interested in NAFA but i'll just check out te Poly tomorrow.
Gina : Whats NAFA ?
Me : Nanyang Academy Of Fine Arts .
Gina : Ohhh . You got what talent ?
Me : -.-* Bitch . Either dance or designer la.
Both of us : laughing.
Seriously , she somemore can ask me what talent i got . K nevermind.

Quick RE-CAP.

2010-01-06T00:01:00.003+08:00

Hiii :) Been dead for a long time huh ?
Okay, now LT 11% (low battery) . PATHETIC.
Mum wont let me recharge cos if not im gonna used till 2-3 am & she's afraid i cant wake up for school.
Lots of things been happening in my life. I'll update one of these days when im free. Jeesh . There's alot alot alot of stuff i wanna type in here right now. But tooo bad , LT gonna die soon.
Oh & i've refresh my WishList . I'll Freshen up my Blog when im SUPER FREE.
I'll update . and& I mean SUPER LONG POST one of these days.

Bye sweethearts! :)

and& somehow im feeling so weak inside everytime i - .

Say HELLO then GOODBYE

2009-12-31T00:58:00.000+08:00

Hello Olla Boo !
Lols. Kaauuu, this is like so freaking pathetic siaaaa. Wont be in Sg tmr till mayb on Sat or Sun. Will b chowing to KL in a few hours time. And te sad thing is that, i cant be in Sg on te New Year 2010. Sedihhh nyer :( ! Sigh. All i can do now is to wish ALL HUMANS HAPPY NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE. Pathetic much eyh? Whatever has happened in 2009, forget about it and learn from te mistakes. and& Whatever 2010 has in store for you, learn to overcome it. Be it happy or sad moments.
BYE nd Tc !

Get OVER IT please .

2009-12-26T04:30:00.005+08:00

Will stay strong & treasure each other .

OI ! Tis post will be SUPER DUPER LONG kaays.
Skip it if you're not interested. Wont force you .
BOOHOO ! Kaaaay, let' see . Te last time I updated was on thurs. Errr , HELLO !
I AM SO GONNA HATE MYSELF ! Stories about me later Ks. As i said on my previous post , gg out with BFFs . Okaaaay , that was like te MOST MEMORABLE outing i've ever had. & Incase you guys dont know who im talking about, i'll tell you then . FaRaNiAh . Shocked huh ? We didnt expect or neither did I expect that after te recent fights with one of them , we are back together again . God & has some reason for breaking us apart & then back together again. And& I guess i have my reasons too. & that is, somehow I can say that we're some sort of childish fighting over a small matter which turns out to be a huge matter and& after everyone has cooled down we'd think back. Regret I can say . But WE ALL learnt from our mistakes. Because that is te only way for us to overcome anything.

Shush . Why am i talking about this long thingy ? Nyway , te 24DEC09 OUTING.
GREAT ! No words can describe how te outing goes. ^^ Early in te morn jer dah hujan . Sedih kann. & all of us was like hoping & praying ' SUN please ! '
& YAYY ! On te way ti MB, we guys talk about our future, studies, guys, our fights etc etc. OMG. Its been so longg since idk when we talked about all this stuff. Like we usually do. K so. It stopped raining when we reached at Marina Barrage. Settled down ndddd , get ready for te shots ! Te place was like, very SUPER WINDYY ! After that, chow from there. Head to Suntec City. & then walked pass by our memorable place. Then Yanne was like ' Fah kau ingat ni tempat lagik ? ' & ' Yah , masih ingat seyy. Kecoh sey time dulu lari2 semua ' But that was back then lah . Went to eat. After that head down to Esplanade. Bought some cotton candies & popcorns & find a cool place faar from te sun. Geee , Mr Sun was still there shining on us but.. SHADES TIME ! Lols ! As per usual , PHOTOs again . Saw these ' Ballon-like-beachball thinggy to write our wish for 2010 on te sea. And& we were like , WAH COOL SEY. 'Best sey kalau dapat buat..' So, after that its time for us to go home .
But thennn , we spot this pushcart thingy & te person giving out Ballon-like-beachball thingy to te people. Okaaay , OUR wish is granted. 'Baru cakap tadi sey, dah dapat ..' Te ballon ngam ngam uh untuk kteorg 4 . Best kann ? Te whole thing was full ! & I just hope everything that I wrote do come true & including my BFFs WISHES TOO !
_____ HUGS & WAVES AND& HOME SWEEEEEET HOME ! _____

Tis is some of my wish .

Kaaay , next about me .
I guess i wont be updating till next week . Too lazy & too tired .
So, how about updating my NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS TOO ??
Kaay , lets start .

Oh waaaaait. I just feel like saying this.
Please have some sense of Originality .
Live up by yr own name & styles . Not others.

Kay Start ..
1. Ofcourse , DO WELL IN O'LEVELs.
2. Study more. They say 3x harder . But i'll do 5x harder.
and& needless to say ,
i'll start concentrating even more eventhough school just started.
3. As te lyrics say , THROW IT AWAY , FORGET YESTERDAY .
I am so not gonna make myself sad for some bullshit reason.
4. TO LOVE MYSELF. weird ? 'Cos i've been hating myself more nowadays.
5. Be a GOOD student, girl & of course DAUGHTER.
6. TRY to listen to parents & not be so stubborn .
7. Save up some money & spend lesser please ?
8. NOT TO BE A FORGETFUL PERSON KAAAAY !
Thats it . I'll try to think more to make te best of TWO THOUSAND & TEN !

5 MORE DAYS to TWO O ONE O .
& I just wish to forget everything that has happened to me these past few days.
Forget enemies , forget EVERYTHING THAT SUCKS MY LIFE.
Enemies wont bring us anywhere .
Umm , lets move on PLEASE .
& & & I AM OFFICIALLY A FAN OF BOYS LIKE GIRLS band !!
Fuuuuh ~ Te songs are like SUPER COOL & some sort related to my LIFE.
__________ >>

SMILE MORE LESS CRY PLEASEEE ??
Geeesh . Idky i just broke down & cry . All i kept thinking was they dont understand me AT ALL . Where is te old me who doesnt have lotsa problem & will always smile & keep calm when solving it ? I even said, LIFE SUCKS . Which I know it isnt 'cos WE HAVE TO MAKE TE BEST OUT OF LIFE . All i do when i broke down or even felt helpless was to go inside my room, locked te door , close te lights & plug my Ipod and just lie down till I fall asleep.
Shutss . I'll just stop till here & please let me be alone for once.

I love you forever Forever is over .
BYE & TC SWEETHEARTS.

Help me ?

2009-12-24T01:09:00.001+08:00

Before that , this post will be a long ones & messy ones ! ^^
Psssst* Spot something ?Teehees~ I've added te TIME ! & te font is in a smaller size ! Okaaay, im so excited. >.< I mean te time! Previously , NO TIME were there ! But then I edited te templates myselfff ! Lols! Sorry ah, a bit excited mcm budak baru belajar meng-edit template sendiri. -.- Awwwhs , im proud of myself :) & Now, i dont need to do te TIMECHECK >> 00:00 HRS . HAHAHAS. YAY !!

Okaay & HELLO PEOPLE !
Later gg out with BFFs , RAUDAH AZIAH YANNE ! Where are we gg ? You'll see after we've took lotsa photo later on ! & Initially , our plan were cancelled offff 'cos AZIAH have something on. Then around 9 ++ RAUDAH called me & say , AZIAH will b able to make it ! YAYYY ! Te plan is still ON ! Called YANNE & she say she can make it .
SO, DOUBLE YAYYY ! :)

Back-to-me.
I AM TRYING SO HARD TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY !
K , keep te POSITIVE thinking cap ON !
Will b gg KL next week ! & Mom gonna give me $$$$ !
Guess what ? Im gonna do te shopping !
& Next event coming up , MOM BIRTHDAY on te 19JAN.
So how ?
Planned to buy her Branded bag . But she dont want :(
Hmms. How about have a dinner ?
Umm , I'll TREAT MY WHOLE FAMILY ! ^^
Orr , I DONT HAVE ANY IDEAs .
I just have to keep thinking before 19 JAN .

Grr this is so frustrating .
Blogger still not yet cool down.
I cant change te colours font. Sad sey :(
Anyway , just wanna update about me gg out with aunt & my sedare.
Went out with them on Tues @ Bugis.
Aunty treat us PASTA MANIA , ICE-CREAM SWENSENS !
AND& NEW BAGS FOR BOTH OF US ! & NEW EARINGS !
Fuhh ! Best seyy !
SAYANG MAK TEH ! MWAHSX ! :)

And& lasty, i'll be updating a few more post before gg to
KL including my NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONs !
BYE SWEETHEARTS !

So, next who shall I miss ? :'(

Sigh .

2009-12-21T00:40:00.003+08:00

Shucks. Okaay, where on earth did I learnt that new word ?
Oh forget it. Im feeling so helpless right now.
From ONE thing to another one , I just kept thinking of RANDOM stuffs.
Kindda feel sucks about it.
When those thoughts appear out of nowhere ,
i'll be like . FXUCK, im gonna kill myself for doing that.
& few mins later i'll be listening to those bloody hell jiwang song. Sucks.
How do I do this ? Fine , I know i cant escape from everything.
and& I know te fact that whatever im thinking of will never happen.
Im just dreaming too much . -.-

Oh & one more thing. WTF ?! - coming ? Why on earth ?
I've just gotten used to te surrounding & now .. ?
Yaawns . Sometimes im really tired of living.
Eventhough i kept telling myself I CAN DO THIS.
and& I just cant help thinking how on earth am I gonna face it - ?
Really , i kindda hate myself.
This few days , I AM SO LIKE A SUCKER !
I'll be hiding myself in my room in darkness .
& Just listen to those songs on repeat. Awwwrggh!

Okaaay, next thing.
Lets countdown for YEAR 2010 , 10 MORE DAYYS !
Just hope everything goes well next year.

Where's te answer to all this question anyway ?

Made it !

2009-12-19T00:34:00.008+08:00

HELLO !

So I made it to SEC FIVE! Which is ONE , a good thing. & SECOND, my FUNs friend are not gg to be around me as usual. Im gonna miss them. Awwwwwwwrrghh !
Oh & in additional. MS CHONG text me say 'Congrats..' Very touch leyy !
If only blogger is back to normal, I WANT TO CHANGE MY FONT TO TE MAXXXX !
One thing I gotta say to TWO people around my life.
One goes to , my ONE & ONLY enemy. I MADE IT TO SEC 5 ! & you ? You're running away to other country just because you drop down fm EXP to NA ? or some other bullshit reason ? You ever said this to me, NA students = stupid huh ? Tell you what, then y te hell did you dropped down to NA ?
KARMA ! KARMA ! KARMA ! I'll say this again , I MADE IT !
Second goes to one of my family member fm - side. I'll say te same thing to you, I made it. You guys say I cant ? You guys didnt even Congrats me . Well, who am I to you guys anyway ? Your main point is to see me DOWN, faaaar DOWN so you guys can easily use those bloody sarcastic remarks on me. Go aheaaaad. I dont mind . You say I wont make it. -.-* Excuse me , I accept your challenge lerh.
Made it !

Okaaaaay, sorry people. Im ONLY LIKE SHOWING OFFF to this two bunch of people.
Sorry banyak banyak.

I AM SO GONNA MISS MY GFS ! :(

and& this grp of malay peeps ! :(

END OD PART ONE .
NOW , move on with my life.

Been feeling so RANDOM since just now.
and& seriously , so RANDOM.
sighh. I.. forget it.
I'll throw everything that im feeling right now @ ..

BYE & take care sweethearts.
Where there is life, there is hope.

N Result suck my bloody blood.

2009-12-15T20:36:00.005+08:00

Random.

Siaaaak ahhh. Too many to handle siaaa.
Kaaaaay, HELLO humans.
Heard from dad, result will be on 18December @ 2.30pm
Padahal duduk depan tv tapi tak dengar. -.-*
Anyway, yah te day is here. Like bloody hell!
Its finally here. Tak ke jadi giler aku ni.
Im like bloody hell nervous siaaa.
See, told ya' result come ehh, i'll be like no mood sia.
Anwyay, not only today, since te past few days too.

Been having too many thoughts that i know will never happen.
Thought i saw face-alook-like ayah.
Then from there, i'll be like day-dreaming these scene, i saw dad, ran to him but then he acts like as if he doesnt know me. Mak aiii, pathetic sia aku. =.=* Daa laah.
Jerks siaa. Semua lah.

Just know that it feels sucks fighting with te opp of me.
Use vulgar lah, use. Thanks a lot. -.-
I really appreciate it.

Awwwwwwrgghh! Y many things seems to bother me ?
Im feeling sucks. FORVER SUCKS.
Nothing satisfies me.

-.=*

2009-12-13T23:51:00.000+08:00

You think this is a game huh ?

Then i'll tell you this, you sucks.

Full update coming up.

Fineeeeee!

2009-12-12T02:24:00.004+08:00

HELLO manusia ! -.-*
Awwwwrrh! Something just made me frustrated. Nah, more like a feeling of revenge. Im gonna slap myself. *slaps* Okaaay, done. Im NOT supposed to look back in te past. Look,im Super sleepy but yet i keep coming back here in te middle of te nights. NO, in te weeee hour. Soon, i'll have EYE BAGS. Waaaarrgh! Lols. See there ? Told you, i've been feeling so RANDOM lately. *sigh* I want to go PARIS. and& I know that pics too BIG. Even blind people could see it. But so what ? I wanna go there badly !

Im confused. Okaaay, stop it. I dont want myself to get involved agaaaain.
Awwwrrgh! I cant reveal everything here.

BYE SWEETHEARTS.
I miss classmates soooo much!

Late nights. Late nights. YAWNS!

2009-12-11T02:07:00.003+08:00

Check this out. Latest photo. =DD
Okaaay, so HELLO HUMANS. Im back because im so Super FREE right now.
Yawwwns* Like im so sleepy. Been having super late nights till 3-4 am using computer. Editing stuffs. Oh oh, & i actually downloaded this new software about creating website / skin. So, im testing it out. But sadly, it hangs halfwaaaay. Like it irritates me to te maaax coz i've to like redo-it again. Fine, forget it. I'll continue trying out that software tomorrow or whenever im free.

And I was wondering this. Should I change my link ?
K. One more thing. Cant wait for Sunday outing !
Sunday come faster pretty please.
and& they day for N result, come faster PLEASE.
Im tired of counting dowwwwn the days. =.=*

Kindda hate myself.
BYE.

Yaaawns !

2009-12-10T01:41:00.003+08:00

Okaaay. Te title explains it. Im so so tired!
Since its 1.45am, I shall say, yesterday went out with WHOLE FAMILY.
Celebrating GRANDMA BIRTHDAY! Vv kecoh one!

Okay wait. I'l continue from yesterday post first.I'll just summarise it larh. Gg sleep soon. Went out with family to Jb. Mom bought me another clothes! =DD and&&, i think thats it. -.= Past two days nothing much happens.

So, yesterday. Went to Kallang Leisure -- Forgot te place. Went there, celebrate grandma birthday. Always, whenever we have this kind of outing. OUR FAMILY will be te SUPER KECOHs one. And& very NOISY with te photo taking's, laughter, baby cries and& MOMies & DADies talking. Very te happening one siaaaaa. Regardless of te surrounding, we heck care siaa. Lols. Yang penting kiter enjoy !

Currently playing on repeat ; Bad Romance <33
Awwwwwwwwwwhhh ! Been feeling so random lately. *sigh*

Fine. Te more im in here te more im feeling down.
BYE. Treasure your each day with happiness.

Fuck la.

2009-12-09T00:47:00.004+08:00

Geramnyerr ! Seriously, im vv super angry. Internet creating up trouble for me. Like, sekejap ON OFF ON OFF. Mati sudaah la! And& I have to like refresh te internet page again. CB la! Like super ASSHOLE! Macam siaaak ah.

Kaaay, anyway. Hello! =DDD, look im forcing myself to SMILE!
Its already WEDNESDAY ! Fuhhhhh ~ Cepat nyerrr. -.-
Anyway, yesterday. Went to JB, Tesco. Hahahas. Lols Malaysia have lots of weirrd names. Mom bought me new clothes AGAIN ! Hahaa! BESSST ! Okaaaay, its because Malaysia is like vv cheap. Thats y she bought me new clothes. And& like te clothes there v nice & cute. Te shoes. *sigh* If Mom got extra moneyy eh, dah confirm i'll ask her to BUY IT FOR ME!

--->> This is like so bloody hell sickening ! I'll continue update when this @#$%^& is done creating trouble!

Gotten rid of it.

2009-12-07T20:20:00.003+08:00

Check out this new photo of mine. I just love it!

Chaaakk ! Macam Cicak.
Kayyy dah.Dah nak start uh nonsense aku ni.

Anyway, HELLO HUMANS!
Okaaaaaaay. Idky im like SUPER SUPER HIGHHH !Maybe its because i've gotten rid of this uneasy feeling.Yup I hope this will turn out GOOD. Insya'allah.You know what i mean dont you.So, yeah. Im hungryyyy. Like serious. Im hungryy.
Ate maggi this morning. Ice cream in te afternoon. and& now , later gonna eat Chikcen rice! Nyahahahas~
Waaarrggggh~ So long never go MSN. Just now went in there. and& I was like chatting with Raudah, Shafiq & you know yourself. Lols. Very macam busy woman sey.
I was like - closing this chatbox. Saw orange blink blink, opened it up. Type, type. Close it again. Saw another orange blink blink, opened it up & type. And& not forgetting my phone ringing te msg tone. Until now, i can like finally update my blog in peace. So, imagine how a busy woman = me handle it. Lols.

So, before te result I cant wait for ONE MORE event. The class outing !! Like te last class outing before result. Just hope that most of them could make it since its a class outing. And after te class outing comes te result day. The greatest fear in me currently.
Several events coming up tooo. =DDDD Gonna have a date with BESTIES & several people.
So, basically I hope Mom allows me to go! =DD

This quote made me smile.
*I long time never think of him*

Awwweesomme !

2009-12-06T01:27:00.008+08:00

Boooo ! Back again. =DD
There, my 3rd matair !
Aiyoo, these 1st 2nd & 3rd matair is very SUPER DUPER HOOOT !
No wonder they are acting in HOT SHOT. Awwwwwh! <3

Basically today was my day ! Went out with MOM, Bro and& not forgetting my TWO annoying little CUTE SISTER! Planned to go VivoCity, but since Mom got $$$ and& co-incidentally my jeans was torn by itself, told Mom to go Peninsula Plaza. Baaaaaaaaikk hati sungguh! dan jugaaa muraaaaaaaaah hati! Saaaaaayaaaang ibu ! =DD
Reached there. Walk around te whole place because Bro wants to find his FLOORBALL STICK. -.-* But end up, every shop he went to sells HOCKEY STICK. Nyaaaahaahaa.
Okaaay so after that, straight awaaayyy go find my jeans.

and& thenn chow from there. Went to somewhere at Geylang, ate at Banquet. Then Mom bought me another stuff ; clothes ! Okaaay, like only one but its better than nothing. And& i've told it earlier, today she was so baaaaik & muraaaah hati. Niari ajerr. =p Then, fetch Dad. Back to Yishun. Went to Chong Pang or whatever te name is. Wants to find Sis BEG BARNEYYY but could'nt find it. Biler orang nak dier takder, bila orang tak nak dier ader. Very weird leyy. and& Sis was like saying " nak beg baney, nak beg baney " repeatedlyy. So cutee and& So pitiful. Tak dapat beg BARNEY. =( Then Mom bought me a SHOE since my shoe tapak dier daa thirsty. Kesian aku. Anyway, LAWAAAAAAA kasut tuu ! ^^

Seeee told ya' my Mom was being soooooo Generous ! Best sungguh! And today went back home from shopping I said to myself, ' Complete sia niari. Baju, Seluar, Kasut. Nasib baik tak mintak jam ke anting2 ke rantai ke. Fuyh, tu baru 100% complete. ' HAHAHAHAs. Yayy, besok boleh show-off gy orang kahwin! -.-

O M G. Da lamernyer tak update banyak banyak.
My PHOTO TAKING is going from GOOD to BAD to WORSE.
Im like, very ODD when taking photo.
Maybe i've not took photo for ages?
Or maybe something else is wrong?
So, 1st JOB done.
Next 2nd JOB. Should I or Should I NOT do it ?

Sunday 6th Dec ! Countdowwn left with One more weeeekk !
and& i know, right now i might be counting down those numbers.
But by te time it's next week, i might not be excited.
Instead those feelings WILL change to Fear & Anxious.

Kayyy, im done over here!
Daaars! Have a Supeeer Gooood Daaaayy ahead humans.

Urgh !

2009-12-02T17:22:00.003+08:00

Thats my 2nd matair ! =D
Okay . Im back again.
and& Blog is back to its usual-self. Like SUPER DUPER IRRITATING !
First of all, im not feeling good either. Im sick!
I've always wanted to be sick. But now, when im sick by body feels so so so WEEEAAKK ! and& I actually cried simply because I AM SICK !

2 DECEMBER , COUNTDOOOWNN ! =DD
Im missing everyone .

O M G !

2009-11-30T14:22:00.005+08:00

There , my matair =DD

Lets COUNTDOWWWWN starting from tomorrow !
THE RESULT ! Cepat la . Cepat la. Cepat la.

2009-11-28T13:55:00.002+08:00

Hellooo !
28 November. Okaaayy, MID of December is coming !
Which is EQUAL toooooo RESULTs. Y is it like soo fast ?
Which is also EQUAL toooooo , I have to get those things done ASAP, before the result.

Always be prepared to

expect te unexpected.

Cute laaaaaaaaaaaa! ;D

2009-11-23T18:03:00.004+08:00

Eeee. My hand very itchyy ah. Kept changing my skin.
Anyway, I prefer this skin. Simple and& coool.
Switching K Drama to T Drama. =DD Currently watching Hot Shot.
Kenapa laaaaaaa anak anak TAIWAN && KOREA semuanyaa CUTE & HANDSOME.
Ini TIGA TIGA jejaka bawah ini semua SAYA yang punya.

Why are theyyy so cute?
Their acting in Hot Shot punyerrr laa HOT .

Came across this quote. and& it sort of have some link <<-->>

You hate someone
whom you really wish to love,
but whom you cannot love.

i hate that B.

2009-11-20T13:53:00.001+08:00

WHAT
EVER
MAJOR
LOSER !

Fyi, if you want to act crazy again then , by all means go aheaaad. I Welcome You. =D

2009-11-11T22:01:00.005+08:00

So . Yeah, im back.

I am SO SO SO FRUSTRATED !

I swear , I am !
Y cant just these people accept ME ooor even MY fucking LIFE

as it is.

Bloody hell ! WHYY must I , ME , THIS GIRL , ALWAYS have to

GIVE IN to them ?

Y must THEY , always WIN ?

okay , not win . What i meant is,

Y must I always have to listen to them ?

Y cant THEY, FOR ONCE .

FOR BLOODY FUCKING ONCE ,

BLOODY FUCKING GIVE IN TO ME ?

urrggh !

Ya ryte ! Only they have te RIGHT to be angry all te time.

FUCK OFF lah !

Being patience is COOL but , there's a Bloody Limit to this !

They are BOSS or what ? Or are they GOD ?

Y cant they even RESPECT ME .

Bloody RESPECT ME , FUCKING RESPECT ME

even for ONE STUPID seconds ??

And& i mean it ! RESPECT !

Its always me ME , THIS GIRL

Have to give in , Have to listen to them , Have to RESPECT them .

They dont have any SPECIAL CONNECTION with me ?

Sooo, Y ? Bloody FUCKING WHY MUST I do all thooose ?!

shut up ! You just read ,

and& dont even fucking ask me

those stupid Qn .

Aaaaaaahh !!

2009-11-02T22:04:00.003+08:00

SONY ERICSSON SATIO

12.1 Megapixel

SUPER COOOOL ! Watch out !
Im gonna save up & have my hands on this bloody
SUPER MAJOR COOL phone !
and& im gonna show off to my aunt !

Knowing that those thoughts are impossible ,
everything turns upside-down.

Hello =D

2009-10-29T01:01:00.005+08:00

26 Oct ,

Everything goes well. Except for the dinner were cancelled.
We watched PHOBIA2. Which was like bloody hell scary & some disgusting stuff. In that cinema were like ONE whole group of us and& few others. SO, this ONE whole group of us was like te SUPER KECOH & NOISY ones. Which was fun. =DD
Bazz was like hiding here and& there. SUPER FUNNY. And& next moment when te movie ends, he was like saying "Cerita tadi tak seram sia" Yeah ryte. "Tak seram"
Gopal uses his BIG hands to cover his face. LOLs. And& GINA, i pity her. She sat at the center and& was te VICTIM of me & Gopal. As for me, I NON-STOP commenting on te STUPID-est part. Gina sat there SUFFERING to everything i commented. Next destination was behind Safra = Yishun park. So, we slack there all te wayyy.

SO, now. V looking forward to next outing. SUPER LOOKING FORWARD.

She laugh & te next moment She cried.
Repeatedly , Silently.

She regret it.

Good Morning !

2009-10-24T02:28:00.003+08:00

There's still a long way to go .

HELLO.

I've been v lazy. Super lazy.
Changed my skin AGAIN. and& it looks kindda weird.
3 events in a row coming up. ^-^
Sesungguhnya aku rindu semua orang terutamanya - .

BYE. I'll do a proper update when im SUPER FREE.

fuck larh !

Bored.

2009-10-13T20:54:00.002+08:00

HE is SUPER cute. =D

Bored. Bored. Bored.

I swear.

Everything is so DULL.

Im so bored to death.

So, N levels over. and& I kindda miss school. I miss everything.

Teachers loooong NAGs. Class being SUPER NOISY. PE ! Food. Extra classes.

Simply because, im bored to tears at home. =D

*yawns*

Do a proper update when im free.

p sims !.

hgis~

MIA.

2009-10-03T20:59:00.002+08:00

Will be MIA for 1 weeks.
Reason : N levels, next week.

Aku belom start belajar lagik ! Mati tak nak.

Firstly : Back after N levels over.
Secondly : Wishing ALL humans taking their N level BEST OF LUCK !
Thirdly : Dont give up till te END OF ALL PAPERs !

Wish aku LUCK oi !

Why this feelings appears ?
&
Why that feelings disappears ?

VideoS

2009-09-27T21:31:00.005+08:00

THEY ARE VERY CUTE. *look at their laughter*

The last day in school we did this. Te MALAY GUYS & GIRLS. I wonder if we could do this ever again . Sigh~ Its just too memorable.
So, anyway WE asked Bazz to "PROPOSED" to Yanne. And& WE know how - feels. Lols~ Kekek sia. And& WE did this during MATHS class with 2 teachers in te class. lols~

Watch it. I'll update more when im free. =D

2009-09-22T20:36:00.003+08:00

Damn ! Those feelings is just _____ ! I dont have any suitable words!

Aargh ! Dont have enough time to update. Tomorrow then continue. =)

1. Started using facebook & now im ADDICTED.

2. I cant stop thinking of what happened just now.

3. Just chatted with several ppl. & they made my day. =)

4. Im f*cking sleepy.

5. Im ADDICTED to PURPLE oi !

Dah habis. Aku nak tido ! Besok nak skolah !

YAY !

2009-09-19T13:47:00.002+08:00

RANDOM .

HELLO !
Im getting excited here. lols~ Anyway, this blogger is back to normal after i scold this blogger ASSHOLE ! I guess i'll be doing it often. ^^
I cant believe that HARI RAYA is tomorrow. TOMORROW !! Damn! Its like, i cant believe te fasting month is OVER! 1 month is long but this year, time flies so faaast ! And& i hate te fact that i cant fast te past days. So yeah, ystdy didnt attend school. Did lots of housework. & i swear whenever i walked past my room i feel like landing on my bed. Exhausted. Anyway, its not like as if im doing it everyday, so just endure this tired-ness for several days. & i went to JB again. =_=* Buy last-min stuff for house deco.
Myy so how? 1 month takde miss fasting?

So, before i end this post wanna wish all MUSLIMs :

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN !

am i dreaming ?

AS usual .

2009-09-14T13:34:00.007+08:00

HELLO HUMANs !!
I miss blogging so much. and& NOW BLOGGER is being like fcking asshole ! I cant upload my photo. I cant change my font & colours. I cant move to middle & end. arrgghh !
Anyway, several things happened. GOOD & BAD .
Lets flashback & i'll keep this post short as possible.

1. HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY on 1 Sept.
-->Te celebration on 31st was GREAT with te co-operation fm 4A3.
LOVE THEM LOTS <3>Bought her Ben 10 pillow and& gave it to her personally.
-->Make my DIY Birthday card specially for her. =)
3. HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO ME on 3 Sept.
-->Te MOST memorable Birthday for me.
-->Most of my classmates WISHed me.
-->WAS BASHed up with GLUE on my face & hair. eeew !
-->THANKS TO 3babes. SITI YANNE & MYY for te 3 CUTE CAKEs.
4. THANKS MAMA for buying me NEW SPECs.
-->Its PURPLE oi !
5. GLAD THAT 3 N papers ARE OVER.
-->Malay, SocialStudies & English.
-->& now I can concentrate MORE on te others.
6. I've been like gg to JOHOR almost every week ?!
7. Something happened ystdy.
-->I feel really bad & I hope you will be fine soon!
-->I promise i wont repeat those m- again.
8. I didnt attend school today due to - reason.
-->Its killing me. =/
9. Im missing - ! sigh~
10. I WONT be updating frequently.
-->Update later with photos & colours if this asshole is OKAY.

Я думала, что вы & что jerk ненавидят меня?
Я несмотря на то, что вы ребята считать меня врагов?
Почему добавить меня как ФРЕНДС?
Ее настолько damn funny.I смеялись до тех пор, пока я плакал.
и & теперь ее уничижение меня столько.

Can I just live alone without ANYONE bothering me ?
Thats my wish.

BYE & HAVE A GOOD DAY.

Exhausted .

2009-08-30T14:28:00.003+08:00

HELLO .

Feeling tired after te looong journey . Yeah, & Mama lied. Says that we are gg to KL . But end up gg somewhere at Melaka . One joke I made yesterday in car. Mums went to Esso to buy something. and& she asked " korang nak air ke ape ape tak? " Then my 3rd sis say " Mama nak air " So, I was like blur then I say " Mama beli kan anur air coke ngan makan sikit.. lapar lah " My mom replied " anur betol ke tak nie ? " Then i was like " oh a'ah eh, lupe uh anur puasa " Then they were laughing and& I was like " hmm, ketawa ler banyak banyak.. " Anyway, te place there is like so PACK, feeling stuffy . and& te great thing is that, theres like tons of BEARS . Pooh bear, SpongeBob SquarePants, Powerpuff Girl, Ben 10, Tweety Bird, Stitch and& lots more. Really ley, if you guys go there you will be crazy. Everywhere we go, theres this TOYS SHOP. I m already going crazy . lols .

and& bought something too ! =)

Yeah . i dont feel this 100% mood when i go to - except for - . Really , im sick & tired of all this. Ohs, Yah Bazz i disturb you for fun & laughter wadd & kau jangan nak kacau aku balik sudah . For te first time in my Sec life , my birthday is not during te Sept hols . =_=* Thats what I hate te most . and& for te 2nd time my birthday falls during te fasting mth . =_=* derh ~

and& this week will be te last update . Unless if i feel like to.
lols ~ Had a so called " fight " with - about - race & not fasting . ahahs~ Nanti aku kacau kau lagk banyak banyak eh .. BEST uh ! =)

So now, getting ready for school tmr . and& very looking forward to tmr event. =) Hopefully EVERYTHING goes well ! and& like wtf ! I still cant upload my pics !

confusion ?

2009-08-28T23:17:00.002+08:00

I will make them feel guilty.

Past few days, i've been like letting out this

HEAVY

LOOOOONG

& LOUD

sigh ..
I am confused . Then again, LIKE FINALLY , I've managed to overcome it ! Thanks -

I'll skip my -unhappy-life- for te moment.

So, Nlevels coming . I feel like i m dreaming . Its like just yesterday i entered Sec 4 & today my Nlevel . SCARY . So , gonna start doing my Late Night Revision everyday.

and& will NOT UPDATE this blog frequently . i hope so ..

and& yeah, Mama say tmr going JB . Then she wants go early after sahur.

Then I thought she was $&!& hees ~ But she wants go KL tmr . No wonder she want go early after sahur . derrh ~~

Bye & I actually let it out just now .

. syawla ouy evol I

SIGH .

2009-08-26T16:58:00.004+08:00

Quick , i need that someone to rescue me .
I feel like giving up. Its tooo tiring, i tell yarh. Its BLOODY FUCKING DAMN tiring ! If I were given 1 decision to make right now :

I want to run away from reality .

This is not me. I know that.

idk what else to do. and& I got this ,

' Oh, what the heck.

Haven't you held on to this long enough?

Look at your present,

& forget the past . '

BD .

2009-08-25T22:17:00.001+08:00

You must do your talking face to face.

Words alone won't communicate what you want.

and& I agree with that .

BYE .

aaaahh !

2009-08-23T22:00:00.003+08:00

Hello .
Okay , im getting nervous here . Fyi , after I woke up from my sleep, my heart beats faster .
PRELIM result of course. Only that result show me how im gonna do in my Nlevel . and& next , *insert words* .
Im getting MORE tired nowadays . Oh wait , few second ago msg Gina . You very blur ley gina . Everytime lorhs . lols
and& this Blog, i still cant upload my photos. Like wth ! Anyway, i cant wait to get my Prelim result .

Thats why , i need strength

I hate when this things happens

I wanna get rid of this
I need that DAY to appear soon ,

urgh .

BYE & have a GoodNight people.

. msymi

FRIENDs .

2009-08-21T20:30:00.008+08:00

I've fallen in LOVE with that song ! and& *insert words*

So , lets focused on te tittle . and& BEWARE , its a looooong post.

Escape this post if you still got time to RUN . ahahas ~

Firstly , To all Muslims out there,

Selamat Menjalani Ibadah Puasa

dengan ikhlas & sabar .

Then , I was thinking about this few days ago .

Why humans = muslims apologise to one another,

only bila Hari Raya comes ?

Why cant they apologise after they did their mistakes ?

Its weird. and& I could not figure out te reason. I have those reason , but its just not that strong enough to answer those question up there. So yeah , ik im one of those ^ . Lets just say that I wont wait till that Hari Raya comes but to apologise now.

I'll put aside Familys because I think whatever mistakes I've done to them , I've apologise to them. Lets just focused on FRIENDs.

Isn' it wonderful having friends all around us ? Friends comes in all characters . We have to either accept their character if its a GOOD one or we have to give them advice. & Its up to them to listen. We dont have to force them. Oh god , I SWEAR . Secondary school life & friends is MUCH MUCH MUCH more BETTER than in Pri Sch . Its a pity if we dont treasure this friendship or appreciate those people right?

Started off in Sec One with 7 of us . You guys should know =) . Of course , we have several conflicts among us . Like what I say, its a matter of accepting one another. Despite those conflicts & fights , there's those moments of us being together. and& by the end of that year , we are back to 7 of us . But sadly , in Sec Two, we were separated again because of several conflicts . and& its just a Minor one not a Major one. But its weird . As per usual , by the end of Sec Two we are back together again. Except that we the 5s are not that close with te other 2s . and& again , y' guys should know that =). So , lets focused on these 5s . We created those names, have the same stuff, think about our future & have those BEAUTIFUL MOMENTs together. ' We aint perfect ' Remember that ? We wont be separated no matter what. But, its all in the drain . Washed away. and& even if its back, we wont know how to accept each other again . Yup and& by te end of Sec 3 one of us fall apart. Which means, left with te four of us . Disappointed . But , its a surprised for us 4s . In Sec 4 ,we are together as 7s again . Except that things are not as before . RE -united again as friends . Another incident happened . Who would have thought that this would be happening. and& I swear . I cant believe it . The 4s, one of us fall apart. Its really sad. and& when I think back, WHY on earth this things happened to US ? me & her of course was angry and& sad . Both of us wanted to save te situation , but i guess we are fated to be like this currently. and& when I think back, I SWEAR . I just missed those moments of US being together. I miss those moments of us laughing at te lamest stuff . and& I miss those videos in te Dance room . How I wish we are back together as ONE trying to solve this problems . Its late but no matter what we will still be friends .

and& I just wanna apologise to this 7s of them. Im sorry if i've ever EVER SAY harsh words to all of you. Im sorry if i've ever EVER did things that made you guys HURT. I am truly SORRY . and& I want us to remember each other and& all those memories for as long as we can.

So yeah.

and& back to my Life.

again I was figuring this out yesterday .

The reason why I cant forget - is not because I have this - for - . Its because - te - I have onced - that - me. and& I swear that really REALLY - & - my - .
Sorry for those irritating blanks . I cant revealed it .=)

and& lastly i found this somewhere . For te 7s of us .

Someday , everything will make PERFECT SENSE .

So , for now LAUGH at the CONFUSION .

SMILE through the tears .

and& keep reminding YOURSELF,

that EVERYTHING happens for a REASON .

and& again I cant hold this

any longer.

finally !

2009-08-20T18:44:00.003+08:00

Okay like finally . EXAMs OVER ! Thank God.

Hope to see a W O N D E R F U L result . ^^

imy imy imy .

atlast !

2009-08-19T18:17:00.005+08:00

and& i mean like ATLAST !! Thank God , blogger is back to normal .

Feel like changing my mood . So I changed my blogSkin & Song.

Keeping this post short .

I can forgive you ,

but to forget you ?

Aaaahh!

2009-08-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

Okay. I say this again.
Like FUCK FUCK FUCK. Im so sorry but I have to say this. Eh , i remember something.
Just now went to night class. Teacher thought something new ley. and& i m sure gonna use it frequently. I SWEAR !
The new lesson i learned : Last time , this ' F U C K ' word is not known as BAD WORD ley.
But now somehow , it is a BAD WORD. Ouh watever it is i will take te first decision.
IT IS NOT A BAD WORD. I repeat eh , NOT A BAD WORD !! ^^ lols~ i like that.
Okay back to the start. Im surprised that the blogger navi now has appeared. BUT BUT, it just does not seems to work. I click on it so many times. & nothing happens. F U C K ! =)
AKU NAK UPLOAD GAMBAR LA GILER ! ! !

OH anyway , MATHS paper 1 OVER. I have not revised my LIT . ahahs~ Oh , & im looking forward to MATHS paper 2. I SWEAR , im not prepared for te 2nd paper.
& I'll update again when i've done with all the papers. Cant wait to get te result. Exam belom habis , dah tunggu result ehk .

Back to ME. I dont like this feeling. Somehow , I feel like getting rid of it. Not the feelings , but _. I dont know. I seriously hate this STUPID feeling . Its SO SO uncomfortable. I want this to end SOON! I dont know. Im ALWAYS confused of this.

Oh , im over te moon.

_ & _ were _

EN ?

V. Irritating

2009-08-15T18:06:00.000+08:00

OKAY.BLOG IS VERY VERY VERY IRRITATING. and& I MEAN IT !
its either, there's something wrong with this LT or this BLOG.
FUCK . FUCK . FUCK . Seriously , its bloody DAMN DAMN IRRITATING.
I caant even upload my photo , change te fonts & colour!BINGIT siot!
Macam nak hentak jer ni LT !!
Then again , when I go view other blogger , they can update without any prob.
Like wth sia!

Go to hell larh! So prelims has started. I dont feel nervous at all.
I swear! I feel like as if this PRELIM is my MYE . WEIRD ?
My heart only start to beat after I sat for those paper. WEIRD again.
Wadeverh it is . ENG & MT paper was over. Can say that it was 60 percent easy. ahahas~
and& now , im looking forward to te next paper!
Obviously , its MATHS & LIT . =)

Oh oh. I wanna insert bout something. ^^
ENY said this "I know taekwando , you know" That was CUTE!

Никоим образом не получаю те шансы.
Я считают добрых о нем.
Я чувствую себя как МПОГ -
Больше нет надеемся, что для меня.
я знаю.
So , go & figure that out.

TWO dedications for TWO PERSON.
Firstly - Raudah. I hope that you will do your Maths paper w/o any CARELESS MISTAKE!
Skip that question first if you cant do it. I wish you all the BEST !
Secondly - Myy. Rest well yeah! & Come quick to school.So aku boleh kacau kau! =)
and& dont worry bout te class photo. We are gg to think of something for you.

DONE! My butt hurts! Have been sitting for too long.
and& psst *this particular person* IMY.

Big G.

2009-08-07T19:53:00.001+08:00

idk. I seriously dont. I dont know whats going on with me this few days.
I just miss those moment. EVERYTHING!
im confused. This feeling suddenly came 'POP' out of my heart.
Not me only. There's one more person who feel it too.
Weird.

daaars~ humans. I dont feel good nowadays.

LOL

2009-08-04T19:16:00.000+08:00

K. Seriously im not suppose to update. nah~
I mean, i dont wanna update frequently.If not im gonna be addictive!
lols~ Like wth , i cant even edit my fonts to italic or change those colours.
Its SO SO PLAIN.
Wateverh it is, im updating bcoz of something I SAW & READ.
So, im reply-ing IT. ahahas~~

I told you already kan, i dont want you to feel guilty.
and& I dont really KISAH bout IT. Because I know, its all a misunderstanding.
THATs FROM te BOTTOM OF MY HEART OKAY.
If i say,im telling te truth that means i AM okay. =)
So dont think neg- TREAT this as JOKE like we usually DO.
and& lastly, You dont need to feel guilty or sorry.

There, im DONE about IT. =) Dont think toooo much ohkays.

Kay larh. I'll update more for this one post.
I've been like studying ALOT ALOT till midnight.^^ & SOONer or LATEr me & YOU going to study late at morning ard 12 till 2/3am right? CONFIRM ??
and& lately , im starting to DOZE offff in class. I swear , im just tooo tired & tooo sleepy. I need MORE ENERGY.

How i wish, thunder storm strike me everytime im dozing off.
or TeeZ go wake me up ?? ahahas~ y'knw, i'knw gitu!

KeepInMind.

2009-08-03T17:39:00.000+08:00

Remember, that things worth having are worth waiting for.

Read that again & again. ^^
Its like a dream. Yes it is!
& I swear , its te MOST BEAUTIFUL dream I've ever EVER had!
I want it again. AGAIN!
Its PERFECT.

idk larh!

2009-07-26T18:51:00.003+08:00

Idk. Feel weird. There is something WEIRD going on around me.
I keep telling others to DO that.
But I, myself DONT even DO that.
Please , im feeling those feelings AGAIN.
Those feelings I had just few weeks ago. I swear , idk how to handle it anymore.
I abandon them. & now its coming back.

Can I just like run away from everything ?

YES!

2009-07-21T20:50:00.010+08:00

BODOH! Tak adil betul! Dorang ni BUTA ke pe?
The ONEs who DONT deserve , got that easily.
The ONEs who DO deserve , got te opposite way.
Arent they BLIND ? I SWEAR !! They ARE!
Go DIE larh those people!

YOs! Later gort JIHAN. GOT DON! aarrghh!
Anyway , like wths?!! I have to go & create up some steps for my AUNTs Kindergarten performance.
Blur dey aku! Tak tau ape sey nak create. Rindu larh aku nak masok DanceRoom & Dance like last time!
ahahas~ anyway, could say that this is MAYBE my 1st CHALLENGE to be a DANCER! ahahas~ GO LAUGH larh.
Like as if I CARE! lols~

Anyway, T tak cabot smlm!
ahahas~ Dapat jugak jumpe die. and& again , T tak ade nari! Boring kalau de takde. And& just hang up with RsT < was making me BIG Js like again.
Anyway , i know YOU are doing that to get OVER some problems.

Dont worry RsT , will always be there to hear your woes.
Count on us.

OH GOD. The RESULT is like now!
After te performance straight away?!
GOD, save H please.

YEAH! I mean , just got to know the result. & now, i feel like crying. idky
Weird huh ?

Random FUN

2009-07-18T00:17:00.006+08:00

FREAKY FRIDAY FRIDAY.

YOs people! This few days had SUPERly fun day!

But its just that, im not that 100% feeling te 'FUN' as MCZ always not there. Tak habis habis nak cabot. Bukan nak tau duduk diam. Anyway , three days seems like forever. Hope that next week , MCZ tak cabot lagi sudah.

I thought i saw MCZ there. Then again , maybe NO.
But my mind keeps telling me YES . My heart says NO .

So i really got no CLUE at all right now.

GOSH , 3 test, ORAL & Prelims .

Those 3 test :

MATHS 39 out of 80 ?! Like one more mark !

COMBINE HUMANs 10 out of 12 ! Improve eh^^

PHYSICs result , coming up next week .

Oral ; I know i talked lots & lots of rubbish . Actually not that lots of rubbish larh . Te Picture was about a SUPERMARKET , a PROMOTER selling its product to te CUSTOMER . Like wth?! I cant really talk much about that picture. But te invigltr , was like nodding here & there agreeing with what I said ^^ . Te conversation was bout - do you prefer shopping at ShoppingCentre or small markets ? Like this part , i was okay okay lah. Then te part when they say ' why do you think some people dont like party's ' DAMN. My mind was blank. All i could say was like ' mayb they dont like surprises - which do not have any links to the ques . and& maybe they are shy & nervous. RUBBISH , i know.
Anyway , glad that ORAL was over .

Just now had some conversation between *insert names & insert names* Then this thought & *insert name* flies through my mind . I *insert four words* REALLY , I swear! Then , I was talking to myself , No fah , no way! Dont think about it again.

On Thurs , hilarious day I can say. We check out RsT MSL pants since its in white colour. SERIOUSly , we are NOT PERVERTics ! Anyway , too long to share out those stories . Let it be known to MCZ , MSL & SLQ only !

Hyps larh they all .

I miss MCZ ,

MZ ahahas~

2009-07-14T15:19:00.004+08:00

Я люблю МЗ & только.

Its COOL . ^^ go figure that out ! lols

Eeeekkk! *cramp face*
Not FAIR! ahahas~
Anyway, those " missing " feelings I had , has been cured .
Of course , MCZ appears! and& RsT was like making me BIG Js again & again!
Wad-te-evers eh! lols

*praying hard* Hope will pass my ORAL , 3 TEST thats coming up & PRELIMs on 13Aug .

WISH ME FULL BUCKETs of LUCK!

mZ , mL ?

ahahas~ BIG J ?

Geez~ Imy

2009-07-10T15:43:00.003+08:00

as per usual , go figure it out.

Simply because you just wont understand me . =)

Much much better than before .

It just so great , I swearr .

Come on, I just have to endure

and& work hard these few months .

and& to endure *insert four words*

Oh people! I just M *inserts name*

Like for *insert number* days I've not seen.

rindu sangat sangat gitu. lols

and& will be doing lots & lots revision .

Ouh yarh , cant wait for the next Study Meet-ups.

Confirm gerek nyerh like before kan ?

LOVE or FAKE LOVE ?
It cant be happen-ing .
Just continuewith the way YOU are . I wanna see how long you can endure .
I know this is HATRED . Deep deep down , its LOVE .
Dont ever ever treat it as if nothing has happen .
Its still te sweet-est Memories .
In te other way round , let me say again ;
Take that GUN & SHOOT your fucking BRAIN !

Go tell everyone.

Tell them i hate you & .. you hate me.

That'll make you satisfied!

CKUS.

2009-07-08T18:35:00.002+08:00

My lucky day. Saw *insert name* twice. ^^

its damn fucking noisy.

Stupid piano!

Help me!

2009-07-07T18:53:00.002+08:00

GOD, IT's OVER!

Semua orang pernah buat kesalahan.

Mustahil kalau satu orang pon tak pernah buat.

I guess we dont have to bother about this stupid thing again & forever, I guess. You made that decision not us. and& I have the right to side who I want. Its because I know who is telling the truth & who is lying. You dont have the rights to tell me what I should do. This thing doesnt involve You & Her. It involves US - FOUR. Not TWO.

helllo-- NO one is PERFECT in this world.

YAY! Its finally over. My so-called crush or known to Rs as my ______ . and& then saw Rs ____ or known to me as my S______ . ahahas~ BIG Js . Saw my so-called crush for like a loooong time . and& then walked past my S______ outside the canteen . ahahas~ Jangan BIG Js lagi sudah ' OtakOrangTua ' So, back to my so-called crush . Rs realise that that person _____ is the same as mine . Coincidence ? Samer taste larh kay. Tapi sayang larh , Rs tak sempat nak ____ ______ de. Kalau tak , dah boleh buat kenangan kan Rs .

Coincidence? Gosh , when can I have

that chance again ?

Im tooo L-A-Z-Y.

2009-07-04T13:56:00.049+08:00

GOD. Help me get RID of such DISASTERs.

I thought I dont need to bother about this thinggy anymore ?

I thought things would be okay as it usually do ?

Come on, GROW UPP!

How loong do we need to take to settle things down ?

Da lah eh. Im too lazy .

You want continue doing your way ,

buat lah suka hati kau , yang penting kau bahagia.

Dah tak penting lagi .

I truly HATE guys like that ^^

I think you got the wrong info about me . & I think you DONT understand every single bits ..

You are not matured enough .

SO SORRY , HOW ABOUT YOU GO ON

WITH YOUR OWN ROUTE ?

YOU DONT NEED TO FOLLOW OTHERS .

GROW UP , & THINK WISE-LY .

GO & DIE.

FOREVER!

Big Js eh ?

2009-07-03T18:45:00.004+08:00

BOO! SORRY FOR USING

TOOOO MANY VULGAR peeps.

SORRY . SORRY . SORRY . I dunno wads got into my headd orr even myself. Kay , one thing I know is that , I have to moooveee on like what ____ say. That day will surely come . and& if im not wrong is that yesterday ? IM praying sooo hard that those ________ wont come baaack anymore . FOREVER . period. Reason , I hate it when it comes again . & I swear , I dont know how to handle it . Thats why I need someone / something . orr using lots & lots of vulgars .

So ystd , forgot to update about one impt thing . Was told to buy drink , then I saw this someone . God , beside me only la . Ime . lots for sure. ahahas~ I know, you people dont understand that . Figure it out yourself. dennnngggs! and& for today, te title would be ,

BIG Js. ahahas~ Me & You aje lah tau kan.

Damn , I was late today . Kay, not that late , 7.30 reach school. Woke up at 7.10. Rushing here & there ofcourse. Reach school & then saw YOU ____ . So called in charge of that taking ____. lols. and& I was like saying , kalau aku bilang YOU, mesti BIG Js nyer. After DONE taking ____, raise up hand all that. Then YOU ____ come & put that ____ at my _____. ahahas~

So like what I say , when I got back to the class , I told YOU & ofcourse BIG Js.

School ends, & we still kept talking about te same topics. Te main reason was to make YOU BIG Js. lols

I : eh nnt aku simpan ni buat kenangan ehs?

YOU : ape ___ ? Kenangan? antara kau ngan ____ ___?

I : ahahas~ A'ah lar. eh tak tak, antara aku , kau ngan ____. Tapi, aku ni so called s_______ de larh.

Mampos! YOU heard that, YOU was like ' I hate you Fah.' YOU was beating me here & there.

Da larh , jangan BIG Js lagi lah. Aku main - main ajer lah. Tak kan lah aku sampai hati nak amik kau nyer ____ kan , kau ni pon. Aku tau lah ____ tu semua nyer ketot kan. *giggles* Kay, that last sentence was FUNNY for ME & YOU.

Let say, I hate you

& You hate me?

Deal or No Deal.

RunAways.

2009-07-02T16:10:00.005+08:00

GO & DIE larh! Like I Care, Fcuking people!

If you're on the fence about a certain someone or situation,

the stars suggest you stay up there a bit longer

& suss out both sides a bit more.

Give it a little time

& you'll know which side to come down on.

It says that. I mean te Horoscope I saw. Swear, its what im experience-ing NOW.

IM done writting out those, but its just that I cant bring myself to send out. Im too scared.

Thats why im not sure whether to ;
1. Go Ahead with that PLAN orr 2. Back out NOW!
I need a Fire Fighter to help me. *lols* Coincidence?

Anyway, nothing much happened today except for some Gs here && Gs there. ahahas~ GGs?Fikir larh sendiri!

&& Whats up with te 4a3s people? Come & Go as they wish? Sleep like there's no tomorrow?

Concentrate on other Stuff rather than studying? Be rude to teachers? Being in-considerate, making noise? Like what te Heellls?! They dont wanna study thats their future. But why te f*** must they disturb those who wanna study?

To Myy : Read this ASAP lerh. Go update your blog please. teehees~ If not im gonna call you ,

TRIPLE Ks ; Kerinting, Kedekut, Kudut. ahahas~ lols. Jks eh. Jangan marah! See ya tmr, if you read this today.

Okay lets get this STUPID feelings right. I Hate that fcking jerk. I swear . & I dont care anymore about that jerk . Go to hell lar . and& about that letter ,, I wont send it . Scared? Yes, I can say. But so what ? That jerk dont deserve it . I know, I keep changing my mind. I am a jerk too . But not as worse as that ass jerk . Come on lar jerk, Go knock your bloody hells brain lar . KARMA??! You rich ? So what ? I dont give a damn . You fcking clever ? So what ? Im more clever than you . You stupid human ! You travel by airplanes ? What te heeellls? Im gonna pray so HARD that you wont be able to travel by plane anymore. Ehs, kau lame lar BODOH! & I think thats it . Im gonna hate your bloody attitude ,, but you are not my Enemy .

I know I have some attitude. Mood Swinggs ~ =_=*

God, forgive me. I cant believe im saying this.

Why bother to write if you are not interested?

HYPs larh.

Lol-ness OF Random.

2009-06-30T19:44:00.004+08:00

READ this >> Bytch-es && Bytch-es ARE meant to be together.
OOPS! Sorrey! I have a Bad mouth , i know.

New Term, New Life. lols .
I find myself becoming more Matured. ahahas~ Yeah. Laugh larh, I dont care.
N'Levels make ME more matured. So now, counting te days and& only about 3mths left?
Maybe 1stMth study, 2ndMth Prelims, 3rdMth N'Levels. & OVER!

Next. Seriously, I cant believe that im DONE, complete-ing te letters. GOD! Next is what I fear mooost! I have to build up those C-O-U-R-A-G-E to send out. and& I have to be calm & FRIEND-ly. lols again , I feel like an IDIOT. When te time is right, ____ is OFFline. Like wad te heeells! But when ____ is ONline, Im like, come on Fah, send it. If not is gonna be too late. Yeah yeah, I know. IM DUMB!

Mommy! Please please fork out $$100$$ for me. I wanna buy those books like HELL.
&& I need that camera so badly. People, I wanna be a GoodGirl for now till exam is OVER.
I have to DIEDIE concentrate in class. Forget about that stupid thinggy. && MORE revision with Rs & to WIN WIN that bet ofcourse! teehees~

I dont like when things are happening

like this.

I need some time to give thoose > TRUST.

Its a KnockOut!

2009-06-28T02:17:00.004+08:00

Random pics, I know. Love her lots ,

Fuuhh~ Damn sleepy I can say.
Its 2.18am, & I have done my work.
ahahas~ Work eh?
Wad-te-evers larh.

Ey, seriously larh I dont know whats happen-ing right now.
Like what I say in te previous previous post , everything turning upside down.
I swear, i dont want te same old thinggy to happen again.
I hate it very much. Let me ask you something, YOU like it is it ??
You have toooooo much influences ard you.
Im not blaming you.
I thought you respect that person?
It seems that you & that other person is te same.
You've change aloot! I swear.
You are much much mooore Wooorse than that other person.
I cant accept it.
I dont want this Stupid thinggy to happen.
I thought everything is settle-ed ? So, why is this happen-ing ?
Im sorry, but I have to say this ..

You are soo dare-ing infront of them.
Let see if you are gonna be soo dare-ing behind them.

God! Tomorrow is MONday.

Monster Monday I guess .

Seriously, im not well prepared to go to school.

But, i just missing my 4a3s LOTS.

To this someone, I'll remind you again,

treasure thoose people around you

appreciate thoose people before its too late

apologize to thoose people when you make mistake.

THEY are truly disappointed in you.

You wont get what You have today, if they are not here.

Seriously, I hate when things have to turn out like this.

I swear again, I will not bother about this things when school re-opens.

Raudah!! ^^ ingat ehs, study HARDs!

I know you know ,